When the woke up the first thing that escaped their mouth is " Why all of this happened? I just want everything back again ". They can't forget about themselves, how they both passed the hunter exam, how they reached the 150th floor in heavens arena, how they fought together against phantom troupe and how they compete the greed island.
It was impossible because they can't forget those days. How killua stayed on gon's side and how gon discovered everything with killua, those small but beautiful memories will last forever.
When killua woke up, he found his phone on the table. On the same time gon woke up and the first thing he always do to start the new day is calling killua and talking with him.
They both called themselves at the same time and the phone said that other person is busy. They called themselves at the same time.... again and now the same, the other person is busy.
This time killua didn't called so gon called and Killua's phone started ringing and immediately not wasting another second he pick up the call.
" Good morning Killua " gon said first.
" Yea!! Good morning " killua exclaimed.
" But Killua..... you didn't said to me why you were crying last night " this question make Killua sad again.
" I just miss those days when we were together " Killua said, his voice started to crack.
" Why don't we meet up? " gon offered.
' Meeting gon again.... meeting him.... nono... I'm not ready... I can't face him now ' killua thought.
" I would love to but I'm very far away from main land. When i come back, we will meet.... okay? " killua lied.
" Okay " gon said sadly. Killua can also feel the sadness on the answer but he was unable to do anything.
" But if you don't come near the main land on your birthday, I will kill you " gon said though his voice cracked.
" You can't because i have my nen " killua joked.
" But I'm naturally stronger than you. Better to came near yorknew on 7th july " gon said.
" Oh..... umm~~ sorry but I have to go to wake alluka up " killua lied again.
Gon sighed through the phone. " Okay then bye " saying they ended the call and when they ended the call. They started crying again.
The time passed on his own rythem. To relieve the pain, they both take the path of self destruction. Now days, they cut themselves to relieve the pain. Whenever they feels like they can't handle the pain, they cut themselves. To prevent everyone not to see their scars they use long sleeves. Gon who was never used to wear long sleeves, now always wears long sleeves. To gon, he was suffering because he thought, he left killua for his own selfishness but actually it wasn't his fault and to killua, he was suffering because he thought, he left gon to forgive himself not for to be usefull to gon but they both didn't know how much they needed each other's back, each other's side, each other's wormth. In reality, it's called life. People always thinks it's their own fault but truely they both have nothing to do with that.
Most certainly gon's condition was becoming more serious because.... It's not like killua wasn't suffering but killua have alluka, a certain person to care for him but gon— he didn't let mito or Abe to be close to him. Gon totally covered himself with darkness. He only knows that he have left his one and only friend and for that he can't forgive himself. It was first gon who thought about suicidal steps.
For gon, It was normal like a daily routine to cut himself. He was inside the bathroom. He make some deep wounds in his hand. He hated himself. Suddenly his eyes crawled on his neck in the reflaction.
" Why don't I cut myself in the neck, it will feel more better " he thought.
He put the razor blade on his nack.
" This is for lefting my best friend alone " and he did that.
It was almost dinner time, mito called gon for dinner. She knows that gon will ultimately throw up but he have to eat for his own sake.
" Gon dinner is ready " mito yelled.
No respond
" Gon? " She yelled again.
Again no respond
" GON!! " this time she yelled louder. She got a bad vibe of it so she rushed to gon's room but the room was empty. Her eyes caught the bathroom because the door was open and the bathroom lights were turned on. She immediately rushed and saw the horror scene.
His beloved one and only nephew who he cared and raised as her own son was on the bathroom floor, covered with blood, eyes teary and his mouth has a smile of satisfaction, sadness, loneliness and heart broken, all mixed up.
She covered her mouth as tears started to roll her eyes and she fall onto her knees.
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" Hello killua "
" Hello mito how are you? It's been a while "
"'sniff' It's not the time for greetings, gon is in hospital "
on the other side of the phone, killua was almost lost
" what happened to gon!!?? "killua almost yelled on the other side
" He tried to kill himself. I can't give you all the information now but please..... gon misses you a lot. He will feel better if you come " mito said almost crying but on the other side killua was on his knees on the ground. He didn't understand what should he do. One side of him wants to meet gon and the other side wasn't ready to meet him..... he doesn't feel himself worthy to call himself gon's friend.
" I-i would su-surely come 'sniff' but I — "
" Killua, Killua!! " Mito yelled but he doesn't respond anymore because on the other side of the call Killua was on the floor crying. He can't forgive himself that gon tried to kill himself for him.
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Sorry ( Killugon )
FanfictionPeople always understand the value of someone when they lost that particular person and gon was the same too. He never understood how much he needed Killua but when he realized it was too late, it was time to left each other. gon promised something...
