Sorry ( Killugon )

My desire?

Kurapika took the book and the letter safely. He thought, maybe it would come on handy. He slowly walks downstairs and to mito.

" Will it be okay if we take gon to us for some time? " Kurapika asked more like with a tone of begging.

Mito smiled with a sad, mixed with a happy and relived expression.

" Sure, why not? At this point, gon need you guys more than me, more specifically, killua. Gon needs killua the most. All this time, he was suffering just because he did some mean things towards killua. I don't know what he did or what happened properly. I never touched his diary. You should know if you have read it. "

" Yes."

" So the truth is gon loves killua, and he thinks for his actions towards killua, he hates gon. So, gon just can't forgive himself. I tried my best to make him realise that it's not his fault or killua's fault. It's just a matter of time. Everything will be normal again, but he is so afraid to lose killua. He always tried to kill himself. " Mito said, which was absolutely right.

" One more thing. I guess it will take some time for gon's healing up. So, can we guys.... I mean me, Leorio, killua, and alluka can live here, " Kurapika asked mito and mito, reassuring that they could live there.

After some chat with mito, Kurapika returned to the hospital. Killua wakes up, beside gon's bed, holding onto gon's hand. He felt a bit better now, at least after the crying. Why wouldn't he feel better? He is again with gon, so he is happy. But the idea of gon changes pushes him through the line. Gon doesn't deserve this. He deserves better. Killua will try everything to bring the normal gon back again. It's what he thought and said to himself.

Time Time Time

It's something that's stops for no one. But before killua knew it, 2 days flew away.

All this time, killua only stayed by gon's side, not living him for a second just like past years when they were young. Alluka was happy, his brother slowly coming back again to his real nature, overprotective towards gon.

Kurapika and others said killua to rest, to sleep, but he denied all the time. Killua refused to leave gon's side

WHAT IF HE WAKES UP AND DID THE SAME THING AGAIN.....

WHAT IF HE GET SCARED WHEN HE WAKES UP.....

WHAT IF this and that.....

This worriedness was reasonable because the doctor said that gon should wake up in 48 hours and 48 hours had been completed. Today, from 2:23 p.m., killua was feeling a tense yet relaxing something. It's something like he needs to do but doesn't know what it is?

Killua was staring at gon's lips. It was plump and soft, well that's what he thought by looking at them. Killua stared.

one minute-

Two Minutes-

THREE MINUTES-

Yes, that's what it is. Killua knew what he had to do. It just needs a little courage. Killua was at the side of the bed where gon's head wad kept in a pillow. Killua pulled up his hand and pushed it towards gon's lips. He caressed his lips with his thump.

Yes, it is soft-

A sudden heat creeper killua's cheeks. It became crimson red. Killua was blushing. He closed the gap of their faces between them.

More-

Some more-

A bit More-

Just a little bit-

Killua's lips were inches away from gon. And

Killua's lips- they touch gon's, softly. It was just a small peak.

Killua's eyes softened.

" Hey, gon. I love you, "

Can gon's feel this-

Can gon hear me-

Do gon feel the same..... just like how I feel about him-

Did gon like it-

Killua was so perplexed, his brain crushed, and for some time, his brain became blank.

On the other hand, Gon felt something on his lips. He didn't know killua had kissed him. It would be easier for him if he knew that. Gon didn't know what even he was doing till now.

SLEEP......

Time flows out so fast that it was 11pm at night already. Killua was sitting on a chair near gon's hospital bed. Kurapika and leorio asked him to come with them, but he passed the proposal. They didn't force killua much, they knows about Killua's mental condition. They left the dinner on the desk of the hospital room.

The dinner was dry, some crispy fried chicken, a double cheese burger, and coca?

WHAT THE FUCK!!!

Here, Gon is unconscious. Who knows when he will wake up and their LEORIO and KURAPIKA are partying. Killua liked those items, but though.... but should he eat? What would Gon tell him if he was there.

OBVIOUSLY he would say to eat them, but killua didn't feel like eating. He ate a small piece of fried chicken and the burger. There was a water bottle on the desk so killua drank that. He didn't feel like taking Coca. All the remaining, he throw them to the garbage can of the room.

Hey, killua, you should kiss Gon again when he is awake

Killua's inner part said out of nowhere.

" But I have kissed him one," he mumbled to himself.

But he is not awake. It's not fun to kiss someone when he is asleep.

" It's better this way," killua said to myself proudly.

So will you not confess to gon about your feelings? You didn't want him?

" Well....... 'sigh' I do, but what if he started to hate me. I don't want Gon to hate me- plus what if it affects our friendship, and I don't even know about gon's feelings. " it's right, killua desired for gon, he want him so bad that it hurts, but whatever he does always ends up messing things, at least what he thinks about himself. killua said to himself.

His head hurts, the pressure of his thinking's was getting him so badly that he can't think straight.

" I should sleep for a bit," he told himself.

He looked at gon's face. Gon's chest was slowly going up and down with a soft rhythm. Killua wanted to hear his heartbeats.

BUT WHAT IF ANYONE ENTERS AND SAW ME RED HANDED.......

Brush that of, no is coming in this time of 12am.

Killua slowly and hesitantly tilted himself towards gon's chest and placed his ear on gon's chest.

The sound of his heartbeat was so esthetic and relaxing to hear, that's what killua thought. He felt like he would melt on it. Killua felt like gon's heartbeats were repeating killua's name over and over again.

Killua Killua Killua..............

Killua smiled to himself. He softly holded gon's palm on his and put his head on the side of the bed.

I Love You, Gon......

It was the last thing killua thought. After that, he slowly drafted into a light but smooth sleep.....
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Gon, Be Mine Forever