Sorry ( Killugon )

Things Are Different Now

After they both, killua and gon get released from the hospital. Some sort of things happened, Gon became more cold, and killua became introverted.

These sudden changes take different actions in their life's.

" Mito, how much time I have to say, don't come inside the room without permission," gon said coldly.

" But you are hurting yourself again and- "

Cutting her gon speak " Yeah!! Yeah !! You worry about me.... something this something that. Enough of it!! GO OUT OF MY ROOM. I. SAID. GET. FUCKING. OUT. OF. THE. ROOM " Gon yelled the last part and really mito left the room.

Gon's mood was off.... he tried to calm himself down, but he was getting more and more pissed but he didn't know why?

In the last he thought, if i call killua maybe then i can calm down. So he pushed his hand for the phone, which was on the table. He grabbed it, and by mistake, it fell from his hands.

He didn't know. When he tried to turn on the phone..... it didn't work.

" Fuck!! It was needed!!## now i can't ever call killua. What a damn life! " gon whispered to himself.

On the other hand, killua was feeling depressed and he also didn't want to talk with his sister. He picked up his phone and called gon but gon never picked up the call.

Killua tried one times....

Two times....

Five times...

Ten times....

Twenty times.....

But still gon didn't picked up the call.

" So gon didn't want to talk with me anymore ...... well then!! That would be better for us? " killua thought as his vision blurred and he fell into a deep sleep.

When killua woke up, it was already 10 pm. Killua's sister said loudly to come and eat something, but killua didn't want to eat anything.

" I'm not hungry," Killua said.

" it's okay to be sad or something, but at least eat something. You will be sick if you do not eat, " his sister said, worried.

" I'm just not hungry. I think I have lost my appetite. I promise I will take breakfast tomorrow, " killua promised, but he didn't know if he could eat in the morning.

Whatever, alluka, his sister didn't push through so much, so she left her brother alone.... at least till morning. It's very dangerous to leave him alone for a long time........

Things never became normal again. The more time passes, the more their character changes. Killua became more fragile and more emotional and extremely introverted. On the other side, Gon, who was just like a light, cheerfull and more positive, became a person covered with shadows, darkness, sadness, bitterness for himself.... the more days it went through, the more gon hated himself. Gon hated it that for a shit like him, killua wanted to suicide. He hated it that for a shit like him, his aunt mito worries so much.

Is it gon's fault? Or is it killua's fault?

Or is it his father's fault that he left his son behind.

Or is it something else? Something more? Something big?

Maybe.... they didn't know, or maybe they didn't want to know..... they didn't want to understand....

NOTHING IS FOREVER .....

They understand they have to face reality, and they have to live even if it means they have to leave themselves behind.

After 1 one year of their separation, they both have given up, and they are just living like an empty shell. Gon, more cold and angry most of the time, and killua, more introverted and emotional.

They both never got out of the pain, but they never show anyone.... at least now.

Will they ever be normal?.....

NO-

Will they ever recover from the pain?....

NO-

Will they ever reach out for themselves and become friends again?.....

DON'T KNOW ~~ MAYBE YES!!

But the truth is truth.... things will never be the same afterward.

They still miss themselves. They still want one another's warm embrace. They still want one another by their side, forever.

To them, the god is heartless......

What is the meaning of their life's? They often think this.

It's not like they likely care about what is happening to them.

Nowadays, life is likely a busted sad drama where they have acted their rolls, and then everything ends.

But though, one side of them wants more..... more.

Times stop for no one. It passes even if someone is suffering or dying.

They understand that the time they spend was a golden time, a time that was memorable and heart-fluttering.

Time stops for no one........

TIME. STOPS FOR. NO. ONE........

Now, they don't have their backs.

Shouldn't they reunite?

PROBABLY!!

Should they stop hurting themselves?

PROBABLY!!

Should they try to forget themselves?

ABSOLUTELY NOT!!

Still knowing the answers to the questions, they can't gather their courage to face themselves?

What if he hates me?

What if he doesn't need me anymore?

What if he made a new friend?

What if he doesn't feel the same?

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This unnecessary question and the imaginary answers always hold their backs, and they move backward.

How long will they stay like this....

PROBABLY MONTHS....

OR MAYBE YEARS.....

Should they move on?

NO....

THEY WANT TO STAY LIKE THIS AND WANT TO HOLD ON THEIR SWEET AND PRECIOUS MEMORIES..........

JUST LIKE HOW THEY WERE BEFORE......