Suicide Sisters

16

JA'KIYA

So today my shadow decided he no longer wanted to be behind me and has been ghost since we woke up.

Zed is my shadow.

He found a loop hole and now pops up at three in the morning to sleep and wake up with me.

His mom called around seven in the morning, waking us both. He left without saying a word and hasn't respond to a text or answered any of my calls.

"Yaze, how's your family?"

Giving a side eye he focused on the the game he's playing.

"Straight, nobody told me nothing. Why?"

"Zed got a call from your mom this morning and I can't get a hold of him. I thought maybe something happened."

Shaking his head Yaze laughs.

"You know who Baby Kia is? The rapper?"

"Yeah"

"That's the watered down version of Zed, he'd be last person she'd call."

"Oh?"

"You want me to call—"

"No! No that's okay, I was just making sure everything was good" dismissing his thought quickly I shook my head. "I'm actually leaving in a few minutes"

Pausing the game Yaze turned getting a good look at me.

"I didn't mean to scare you Kiya, he's never haram a woman and I can promise he'll never cross that line."

"I'm not scared" forcing a smile I left going to my room running to put everything in my bag.

My therapist is in for a treat

Double checking that I had everything I basically ran to the door.

"Kiya" Yaze calls over his shoulder resuming his game. "regardless of his mood he'll always come back to you. You're apart of his routine. If he didn't see you this morning, he will tonight."

"And if I don't want him to?"

"Shit outta luck" shrugging he continued. "you had a way out when he wasn't interested in you. I think you'll like being with him despite his disorder, I mean shit y'all got well before knowing nothing should change."

"I thought he was rude and handsome, those pair together. I like that. I don't know about this. I have enough going on mentally I don't need something else to be fearful of."

"Fearful of what? I'm telling you and swearing on my life—on Nia's life Zed won't hurt you. Physically. Woman have the most respect in our eyes. You're safe. As for any nigga you think you bouta get with? Dead as hell."

Fearful of being manipulated into something I don't want

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My therapist did in fact not love it. He has no clue who Baby Kia was and even when I explained who he was it didn't help.

I'm terrible with descriptions

"I don't fear for my life or anything I'm just concerned being around him for too long will alter my mood and way of thinking. I had a habit of picking up other people's mannerisms and personality. From what I've been told by him and his brother, he can get very aggressive and reactive. I'm not like that at all, I'm a crybaby. A walking teddy bear. I'm not saying he's bad but I can't be that."

"Ja'Kiya breath, from everything you've told me about him I can see he adores you. You've said it before in the past he makes you feel secure so why question it off what his brother said? Zed told you about his disorder and what comes with it now when he didn't have to. He's showing you he cares for your feelings, he listens, his actions tells me he wants nothing but the best for you"