The Experimental Mate (in editing process)

She's Gone

It's almost all done! Thank the Lord for that. We've been shopping for about three hours and my feet hurt like no other. They're throbbing in pain and it feels like needles. My whole body just aches and all I want to do is cry. Just cry and cry, non stop in his arms. We aren't home though. Oakley is with us as well as our little family. The boys have been looking at RC cars and Destinee has been dragging Oakley and I around endlessly. Don't get me wrong; I love spending time with them but I hate shopping.
It was only when we stopped in the baby section earlier that I found myself genuinely enjoying shopping. Oakley got some more clothes and I got three onesies. All the onsies were black with white lettering but they all had different messages. I picked out one for Jake that said 'My older brothers are badass', one for Luke that stated 'My big bubba is kind but dangerous', and one for Lane that said 'Don't mistake bubba's kindness for weakness'. I smiled at the bag on my arm at the thought, holding Oakley on my hip with my other arm. I don't trust people and as much as I'd love to put her down, I don't want to change it.
"Dandelion, as much as I love spending time with you, I'm hurting. I'll call Jay and start heading home." The pure look of betrayal in her eyes lasted for only a moment before her eyes flickered to my stomach and understanding flooded her.
"Let the boys stay. I'll take you home and maybe we can snack and watch movies." She pipped instead. That doesn't sound like a bad idea. I really want something sour and spicy. Nodding, I pulled out my phone to send Jay a text, letting him know we were leaving. He said he wasn't far behind. I'm assuming he means he's leaving with or without the boys. I smiled at that, walking with a sleeping Oakley and bags in my arms. As soon as we made it to the car, I could see Jay dragging the boys out. All of them had their hands on each other's shoulders and a train of full grown men, aside from Jake and Lane, were walking out with Jay as the leader and Noah in the back. I started laughing at that before turning and setting the bags down on the floor and putting Oakley in her booster seat. I felt hands on my waist and smiled knowing Jay was behind me. As soon as I fastened her seat belt, I stood up with a little resistance in my lower back. My back has been hurting like hell and I'm not even showing yet.
I turned to see Jay wiggling his eyebrows at me and couldn't help but let a soft laugh out.
"Yes, my love?" I ask, wrapping my arms around him so I could lay my head on his chest for a moment. I just need a hug. My emotions are acting up today and it's making me feel worse knowing it. His arms tightened around me before he pulled his head back and tilted my head up with his hand.
"What's wrong?" He asked, his eyes searching mine before flickering to my lips for a moment. I offered a sad smile before giving him a soft kiss.
"I don't know. I just don't feel okay." I muttered, putting my head back against his chest to hear his heartbeat. I felt him place his head on mine and I only learned more about him. I feel so safe at this moment and my mind isn't screaming at me. Even my feet feel less achy. I felt him place a kiss on my forehead before he pulled away.
"Let's get going and we can cuddle when we get home." I smiled at that, getting more excited to get home. That's all I need today. I nodded, standing on my tiptoes to kiss him three times. Three kisses for three words; I love you.
"I love you." I hum, pulling back and instantly feeling cold.
"I love you too, babygirl. You're riding with Destinee?" He asked, eyeing the car worriedly. She has had some issues with the car breaking down but if worst comes to worst, we can just hop in the back of Jay's truck and ride home.
"Yeah. Be super safe. I love you." I whisper, placing another kiss on his lips. Smiling, I pulled away and sat down in the car. As soon as I did, I almost let out a moan but decided a sleepy smile would work. He laughed before shaking his head. Destinee had gotten Oakley's car seat out of the truck and put it in her car while I loaded the bags in.
"I love you too." He said before walking to his truck. My smile fell watching him walk away and I sighed. I already miss him and he's still in eye sight. What is wrong with me?

We're already halfway home, the ride consisting of Destinee bolting out lyrics and me checking on Oakley every few minutes. I don't know how to be a mother but I'm trying. I looked back through the side mirror and watched the car that's been trailing us for the last twenty minutes make the same turn as we did. Maybe it's just paranoia but there's a turnin in my stomach it won't stop. I instantly turned the music down and whipped my phone out, calling Jay.
It rang for less than a second before his voice came through.
"I know, babygirl. The boys already have guns out in case anything happens." His voice was reassuring but that churning only got worse.
"What're we gonna do? Can we lose them?" My voice is now shaky and I couldn't help but wince from it. I looked at Oakley's figure and my breathing began to pick up. Destinee's hand grabbed mine and gave a gentle squeeze.
"Yeah, there's gonna be a stop light up ahead. If you go straight, it's a dirt road and about two miles down the dirt road, we'll be in our territory so no other pack can harm us." I nodded before looking back to the approaching light. It turned red and my heart started beating heavier.
"Jay, something doesn't feel right." I whispered, my gut, head, and heart all screaming at me. When I turned to Destinee, I could see she was struggling herself.
"What's wrong?" I whispered. She looks to be in pain.
"Grab the wheel and put your foot on my side so you can reach the pedals. A vision's trying to come through." Even her voice was strained. The feeling's growing. I did what she said, putting the phone on the center console. I slowed down to stop at the light, the car a little jerky from our awkward positions. I felt tears gathering as it got harder to breathe. Soon her eyes flashed the glowing yellow and her whole body stilled.
"Baby?" I'm so fucking scared.
"It's okay. Just keep talking to me. When the light turns green, punch the gas and get going. Climb on Destinee if you have to, just don't stop when the light turns green." I nodded and felt a ball form in my throat. Tears were flowing and I tried to get a deep breath, unbuckling and sitting in Destinee's lap. I didn't sit fully, not wanting to hurt her or cause her vision to end. She always gets sick when that happens.
"Mommy? What's wrong?" Oakley asked, now wide awake. I wiped my tears and smiled through the rear view mirror.
"Nothing, baby. I'm just not feeling good." A sob soon followed and the feeling only grew worse as the light turned green. I can't let Jay or Destinee or even Oakley down though. Punching the gas, we started moving. It didn't last long though. There was screeching of tires and a loud crash, a car swerving behind me and hitting Jay's truck. The tears just kept coming. have to stop!
Before I could do anything though, I heard another screeching and turned just in time to see bright headlights through the passenger windows. I screamed before I was thrown in the air. The car's flipping. Is Jay okay?
When the car stopped, I laid on the roof feeling numb. My vision is blurring along with my heartbeat which I felt everywhere and all I can hear is a loud ringing and Oakley's wails. I tried to move but nothing would. Oakley and Destinee were hanging upside down and I could feel someone opening the door closest to me.
"Jay?" I whispered, my vision beginning to darken. I need to see Jay one more time! Please! I struggled to keep my eyes open but they closed on their own. My mind and Coreana were screaming at me to open my eyes but I couldn't. I felt arms lift me before all sense of feeling disappeared. I let out a small breath before finally allowing the darkness to take over.

I groaned in pain as I pulled myself out the window. What the fuck just happened? I looked up to see Destinee's car flipped and immediately felt everything still. Fuck, fuck! Running and limping to the car, I ripped the door of the car and looked inside. Two bodies, where the third?
"Daddy!" Oakley cried, her face red from hanging upside down. Destinee laid unconscious with blood matting her head and arms. Where the fuck is Tori!? I looked around before pulling Oakley's door off, wrapping her in my arms.
"Hold on tight." I demanded and as soon as I saw her nod, I unbuckled her seat belt and she fell in my arms. Noah was beside me in an instant, looking pretty banged up himself while he held Destinee's limp body in his arms.
"Where's m-mommy!" Oakley wailed, clutching onto me as I looked around. Who the fuck hit us? There aren't any other cars around. Where is she!? I shook my head, tears filling my eyes as I held her to my chest that felt like it was fixing to cave in. Where the fuck is she!?
"You pulled her o-out! Where is s-she!" Oakley cried harder, burying her head into my neck as I held her.
"No. I didn't-" I stopped before gently pulling Oakley away so she would look at me.
"Did someone get her out?" I asked, searching her eyes. She nodded and I instantly began running to the three boys who were helping each other.
"Did one of you pull Tori out of the car?" I asked, looking around. Please. Please let her be in there. God, please let her be here. When all three looked at each other, I felt my heart drop. No... No, I was the first one out of the truck. I set Oakley in Luke's arms before turning around. Jax... That's the only explanation. I put my hands on my head, looking around as my heart crushed itself. If Tori survived, she may not be alive for long. The baby...
"Fuck!" I screamed, throwing my fist at the nearest thing to me, my truck. I pulled back and hit again and again until I had no energy left. How long was I out for? They can't be far, can they? I fell to my knees and looked at my bloody fist, feeling rage resurface. I can't lose her. I can't lose them. Please, God, bring her back. Don't let any harm come to her, please.
Pulling my shattered phone out, I went through my contacts until I found Loman. It took a few rings before he answered.
"Get your ass here. He took Tori."