Broken Butterfly

Trust

Natalia pov

Kylo went to work in the basement, he makes me feel emotions I can't explain, but they are all positive, I needed to talk to The moon Goddess I need to know what do I do , I feel lost , I went into my closet, laid on the floor and rubbed the necklace, the next minute I was back in the Garden with the Moon Goddess, " you called me daughter " the Moon Goddess asked " yes I'm stuck I don't know how to be a good mate , what do I do next , he hasn't asked to mark me yet, are you sure he wants me , I was shooting out questions after questions not giving her time to answer , " well he's allowing you to lead , as he doesn't know how to pace himself with you , you need to communicate with him , open up to him and it will flow naturally, but yes he loves you and yes he wants to mark you, go back and communicate with him with that I was sent back to earth, I decided on baking some more cookies, then I would tell him everything that happened to me, then I'll ask him about us , I placed the cookie batter into the oven, my nerves were getting the best of me so I poured me a glass of patron, the liquid burnt my chest going down , liquid courage always do the trick, once the cookies were finished , I poured two glass of milk and made my way to the basement, before I could knock the door was opened and I came face to face with a handsome , worried Kylo, " are you okay he asked while taking the tray of cookies , " yes I'm fine , I followed behind him , he placed the tray of cookie on small coffee table that was sitting in front a couch , his office looked like a man cave, is this an office of your man cave I asked , a little bit of both he answered, we then sat down on the couch, " I'm ready I told him "
Ready he repeated, yes to tell you what happened, "ohh, are you sure love " he asked " yes I'm sure , I want to move forward in our relationship and I don't think we can do that if I don't let go off the past , I told him,
"My name is Natalia Malia Carter , my dad was the Alpha of the blue moon pack ,my mother was also the Luna she was pregnant, I also had a brother who was 19 at the time and was currently training to take over being the Alpha when he turned 21, I was loved by everyone in my pack , I was a social butterfly, when I was five , my parents found out that I had special powers, my brother pissed me off and I started crying and the glass that was on the table broke , so my parents took me to the pack witch where she told them I was blessed , they hid the fact that I had powers worried that people would try and exploit me if they found out , one day when I was 16 , I was in the back yard playing with my brother, I was using my hands to create water balls and throw at him , when my father's beta approached us , I tried to hide my hands but it was too late he already saw it , my father eventually ended up telling him everything and told him not to tell any one else , after that day I never used my powers again. On the day of my 18th birthday, my mother usually have a party for me but she was heavily pregnant, so my parents booked me and my friends a brunch party at one of the famous lounges close to our packs , it was about 7 pm when my brother and I returned home , as soon as I got to the door of my house I knew something was off , the door was open and I heard my mother yelling, my brother and I rushed inside , what I saw knocked the life out of me , my father's beta standing over my father's dead body , my mother was laying on the floor with a big slash on her stomach, exposing the baby inside her , I rushed to my mother's side while my brother tried to fight off my father's beta , my mother's final words were to not let them know what I was able to do , not to trust anyone, the beta manage to knock my brother out , the next thing I know he injected me with something and I blocked out , woke up in the hospital, where they forced me to expose my powers , they tortured me to see if it would trigger me to use it , it took a lot of restraint , until it became second nature, they suppressed my wolf , doctor jones said he paid lots of month for me and he wasn't going to stop until he got what he wanted which was for me to expose my powers,when I just got there they would extract blood from me everyday, they shocked me , but I never gave him , because I know me giving in would be worst than what they were doing now, when I was finished, I didn't realize I was clenching my hands so tight, my nails were cutting the inside of my hands, until Kylo took my hands , he was angry I could see his wolf trying to claw his way out , I know he wanted to shift , but he was fighting it to comfort me , " babe I will let every last one of them pay for hurting you" he said before he pulled me in for a hug , which made me relax and calm down , he pulled me on his lap, and I curled up into his arms, he placed his head in the crook of my neck and I could feel his shoulders relax and his heart rate slowly return to normal , the effects of the mate bond was magical, it was crazy to know I had that effect on the big bad Alpha, "thank you for telling me Natalia,it means a lot to me , I know you've been through a lot , but I promise I'll be here for you every step of the way and I'll wait for all eternity if I have to to take the next step with you , you're mine and I'm yours, you're My little butterfly, so always be bold and keep flying " .I looked in his eyes to find signs of lies, but all I found was , love, hurt, pain, and sincerity, what I did next surprised myself and him, I placed my lips on his, he used his tongue try and gain access ti explore inside of my mouth and I allowed him, our tongues met and started doing a dance of passion, both fighting to dominate the other, we continued like this until , our need for air became greater than our lust, now that the adrenaline was gone , I was a blushing mess, and I could feel something hard under my thigh, I also felt wetness coat my underwear, all this from just a kiss ,Kylo then whispered in my ear "I can smell your arousal, little butterfly, you're driving me and my wolf crazy" his warm breathe one my ear sent shivers down my spine, igniting a passion in me , he then started sucking on my neck where one day I would wear his mark ,I swooned at the idea of him marking me , our
Little session was interrupted by a banging on the door ," my sister is here , you should go let her in , I'll be up in a few" he placed a light kiss on my lip, I got up and quickly made my way upstairs, I had to gather myself together before I opened the door to a nosey Kayla , she reminded me so much of myself , I think that's one of the main reasons I like her , we both were daughter's of Alphas, she was doted on and so was I,
"You reek of my brother she said , with a big grin on her face "
" Stop it Kayla !" I said with a red face
She then proceeded to sniff me , hmm " still a virgin I see "
" omg Kayla , stop it " you're embarrassing me ,
" Do you want to go to the mall with me , she asked "
" I don't know if I'm mentally ready for that" , I told her honestly
"Okay , well you need to get out this house, and if it's up to my brother you'll stay here forever,so it's my duty as your amazing sister to take you out, we can go to the pack beach , it's usually not busy " she said
" Well for your information, she can go outside whenever she's ready, Kylo said while coming up the stairs
" I'll go to the beach, I said"
"Are you sure , Kylo asked me with worry in his eyes"
"Yes I'm sure , okay but if at any time you feel uncomfortable, call me I'll come get you , and Kayla, if you let anything happen to her , I'll kill you "
"Seriously brother you think that low of me , I'll protect her with my life , after all she's my Luna "
Kayla told me she'll be back in an hour , I should wait for her to return , while waiting on Kayla, it hit me that I was going outside, this would be my first time being outside voluntarily in years, my brain started overthinking, my heart started racing , my breathing became short , and I felt nauseous and dizzy , I gripped the counter so hard my knuckles became white , it was taking everything in me to not get a knife and cut myself, my eyes were now filled with tears, I felt my feet start moving as if they had a mind of their own , soon I was standing in front of the knife block, I wanted to take a knife out and cut myself to make the pain go away , but I needed to get better , I turned around, closed my eyes and started taking deep breaths, I felt my heart rate start to get normal, when I opened my eyes Kylo was looking at me with worry ,
"Are you okay Natalia ?
"Yes I'm fine, sorry I just had a panic attack"
"You know you can just stay home , you really don't have to go "
"I need to go , I need to face my fears , hiding away from them won't do me any good "
" okay baby but please promise me as soon as you feel uncomfortable come home "
" okay Kylo , I will "
"Are you upset with me "
"No I'm not upset "
"Ohh cause you called me by my name , by bad "
"I'm sorry I just don't know how to be your mate sometimes, I don't know what to do or say "
"Kayla is on her way , we'll talk about this more once you're back home"

Kylo then opened the door , letting a struggle Kayla, why don't got so much bags he asked her, well I couldn't choose so I brought several for her to choose from , she handed me a back filled with bathing suits , a pretty pink one piece caught my eye , it was covered in the back which was perfect to hide my scars , I pulled out the bag, Kayla handed me a cute cover up to pair with my bathing suit, I excused myself and went upstairs to shower and get dressed, once I was done we , Kayla opened the door and I stepped outside, I breathed in the natural air , I felt free