Broken Butterfly

Doctor's visit

Natalia's pov

It's 9:30 am , and Kylo already has me sitting in this hospital room waiting for the doctor, the appointment was for 10 am and being Luna meant no wait , so why did Kylo make me leave our house at 9 am to be carried for 15 mins to be here 30 minutes before my appointment, because he's Kylo , and Kylo's is extra, dramatic and excessive, but I guess this is all my fault for what happened a few weeks ago, so I had to live with my consequences, I sighed and rubbed my little baby bump, that seems to grow every night,
"What's wrong baby ? Kylo asked
"I'm hungry , I forgot to eat breakfast because someone was rushing me"
"I'm sorry baby, but what do you want to eat "
"Anything , I just need food "
I looked at the time on my phone and it was just 9:45 am suddenly there was a knock at the door and in walked a she-wolf I assumed she worked in the kitchen because she had an apron on she was carrying a food box and a bottle of orange juice in a tray
"Here you go Luna , she said while she handed me the tray
"Thank you so much "
I opened the food box and was greeted by the aroma of steak tips, with scrambled eggs with cheese and seasoned potatoes, with chocolate chip pancakes on the side ,

"Baby what are you going to eat I asked Kylo
"I'm good Lia I'll eat when we leave here
"Oh no baby I can't sit here and eat knowing you didn't eat either , so open up he reluctantly opened his mouth and I fed him steak and potatoes, we continued like that until the box was empty and I was full
"Thanks Lia you're truly an amazing person "
Finally at 10:05 Doctor Adams walked,
"Good morning Luna and Alpha , it smells like food in here "
"Yeah we just had breakfast seeing that someone was overly excited for this visit "
" okay well let's get to it then , she told me she needed to get blood samples, which immediately cause me to tense up, I hate needles , they remind me of the mental hospital I was held hostage, Kylo felt my emotions and knew I was uncomfortable
"Doctor Adams do you mind giving us a few minutes before you do the blood work , Kylo asked , well more like demanded
"Sure Alpha ,mind link me when you need me to come back in, with that she left
" baby what's wrong he asked while caressing my cheeks
" I hate needles , it reminds me of the horrible days, where I used to be getting sedated , I know it's different now , but the trauma is still there
"We can't cancel the appointment if you don't feel up to it love "
" no I need to make sure everything is okay with me and our pups , just give me a few minutes to gather myself " I got up and walked to the bathroom, do you need me to come with you Kylo asked me , "no love I just need a few minutes ,"okay he said while still looking at me with worry and concern, I quickly opened the door to the bathroom, I leaned on the door trying to catch my breath and calm my racing heart,
"Lia you got this " my wolf said encouraging
With that I washed my with come cold water , while leaning on the sink, I got this , I'm not at that horrible place anymore, I said to my self reassuringly ,I patted my face with a sheet of paper towel, discarded it into the bin, then fixed the imaginary wrinkles on my clothes before leaving the bathroom

I found Kylo staring at me as exited the bathroom , I don't think his eyes left the door since I went into the bathroom , I took my seat next to him while taking his callous hands in mine , I gently rubbed it "are you okay love , "No I'm not okay, I hate Robert and what he's causing you to go through"
"It's okay baby, we'll deal with him later, I'm sorry for letting him steal this happy moment from us, I promise going forward I won't allow him to haunt my future anymore, we are having pups , let's celebrate that Ky"
I ended by placing my lips gently on his , "I love you Natalia" and I love you more kylo knight
I mind linked Dr Adams letting her know we were ready, Dr Adams walked in with a nurse next to her carrying a a blood sample collecting kit,
"Are you okay Luna , Dr Adams asked with genuine concern, " yes I'm fine just hate needles I replied not exactly a lie I reassured myself
"Okay Luna well we'll be as gentle and quick as poss the nurse chimed in " I nodded my head letting her know I was ready, I closed my eyes , Kylo took my free hand into his , leaving gently kisses on each of my fingers this instantly distracted me while the nurse filled the several tubes with my blood, with Kylo distracting me with his kisses made the time go by quickly, " thank you I whispered in his ears "
The rest of the visit went by smoothly, we heard the pups heartbeats and found out the genders, we were having a Girl and Boy, I was secretly relieved my pups wouldn't have to compete for the alpha title if it was two boys, even though I knew Kylo wouldn't let it get to that, but still I was relieved because that was one less thing I would have to worry over , my Son was destined to be the heir, " what are you thinking about sweetheart, Kylo asked with our hands entwined while walking home "I was just thinking how I was happy that we were having a boy and girl , so they wouldn't have to compete for the Alpha title "
"Baby I would never let that happen even if we had two boys , I would figure out a way ,
"I know you would ky, I know you would
The rest of the day went by in a blur , mostly spent with me doing my Luna duties, and spending time with the pups while we work on our Christmas project, Christmas was two weeks away and they were excited,it was refreshing hearing their little laughters, made me excited and couldn't wait to meet my little pups , now I'm sitting on the couch in my living room with Love's little head resting in my lap while she watched the little mermaid, while I shopped online for baby clothes , and clothes for Love, I loved being a mother, and I think I wanted a big family, maybe because Kylo and I both came from a smaller family or maybe because I enjoyed being pregnant, compared to Kayla's pregnancy mine was going great , other than the weird cravings, occasionally morning sickness and the heartburns I was doing good, I don't know it later on things will change but for now I was thankful to the Goddess and Mia
"Mommy I can't wait to meet the twins, I'm going to be a great big sister"
"I know you are sweetie pie , did you make your Christmas list I asked her while brushing the stray hairs from her face
"I know what I want but , I can't spell some of the words she said with a frown
"That's okay we can work on it together, let me get a pen and paper okay I told her causing her to nod her head excitedly "
Once I return with the pen and paper she was already sitting up fully attentive
" I want toys , a bicycle, clothes , ohh I want a little mermaid doll, I want to go to Disney , I want to see the snow "
She continued listing random things , some causing me to giggle, once I was done with her long list ,we made dinner , showered and waited for Kylo to get home , we like eating dinner as a family , as soon as Kylo came through the door Love was already running and jumping into his awaiting arms , " Daddy Alpha she yelled " he then walked over to me kissing my forehead then bending down to kiss my now very obvious belly
"How are my two girls doing today
"I'm doing great daddy mommy helped me to make my Christmas list
"Oh did she now , he asked looking at me with a smirk
We sat down and ate dinner, it was quiet but comfortable and refreshing. After tucking Love in, I attempted to clean up , Kylo was out running patrol with Mason, lately I've been asleep before he gets back thanks to his T-shirts now used as my sleepwear every night , at the rate I'm going, he'll need to go shopping for new clothes soon, I sniffed the over sized v neck shirt that hung loosely from my body, the comfort it gave me was remarkable, I fall asleep cuddled up with a pillow and wake up with that pillow replaced with a rock hard chest and my favorite scent, wrapped up in warm arms, I lay in the bed just thinking about how my life changed for the better ,I was a mother,A fiancée , A Luna life was moving in a positive direction and I wanted to enjoy it , but my past trauma always sneaks in and steal my joy, like now here I am happy about everything that's going great in my life, then comes that little voice in my head telling me I'm going to mess up it's just a matter of time , I sighed giving into the heaviness of my eye lids, I'll be ready come what may .