Two Insane Idiots

part 32

It was now day seven and a full week of Sharky being away from home. Aj stayed living with Kenny for three days before Kenny kicked him out too. He felt like he was starting to get far too attached to the shorter man which could cause problems in the future. Not only did he assume he would try something with him, he already had.

Four days ago.

Kenny couldn't sleep. It was the middle of the night, about 4:13 AM. It was day five of Sharky's disappearance and Aj was sleeping peacefully by his side. Aj. The only one who'd actually been there for him the entire time. Aj. The one who Kenny knew for sure was suffering just as much as he was with Sharky being gone. Aj. Niko's Aj. Niko, his best friend Niko. Regardless of any fight or argument they had they were brothers in their hearts. Kenny wouldn't let himself get attached to anyone that wasn't his. He shouldn't let himself. He knew that.

So then why did he find that his lips were firmly pressed onto the sleeping man's lips?
It was that feeling again. The same one he had when he'd given Chunkz a hug all those months ago. The same feeling that'd been torturing him even as a child. What was that dreaded feeling?! Why was it doing this to him?! What happened with Chunkz was an accident, it could have been taken really light. But what he'd done to Aj was genuine assault!

Kenny backed up as far as he could get on the bed in a panic. He continued to move himself away until he accidentally moved too far, dropping from the bed onto the floor. Kenny quickly looked up to see if he'd awoken Aj. The soft snores were still heard from the man on the bed. Good. He was still asleep. Which also meant he didn't know what Kenny had done.

Kenny got up from the floor and started to pace out of the room. He couldn't be here, next to Aj in the state of mind he was in right now. He went straight into the room next to his which happened to be Sharky's room and closed the door, locking it. Kenny was safe here. He couldn't hurt anyone here.

The thought of hurting his own friends never even crossed Kenny's mind but now that it was happening... Fuck, Kenny had no idea what he was going to do. He didn't even like Aj! The man had nothing on Sharky, so what the fuck was Kenny doing going about kissing him?!

"Shit..." Kenny cried in a light whisper. He staggered onto the bed known as Sharky's and started to sob into his pillow. Kenny inhaled the lingering scent of Sharky's perfume as he cried. He missed that man dearly, but the problem he had right now had still yet to stop. In fact he could feel it growing. It disgusted Kenny all the more. What the fuck was wrong with him?!

"Sharks why did you leave me..?"

Now.

Kenny ended up kicking Aj out that morning, never telling him about what he'd done in the night. He knew Aj was forgiving, but he didn't have the heart to tell him. So now it was three PM. The middle of the day. And yet, Kenny's problem hadn't resolved even slightly. Doing it himself practically did nothing. He needed the real thing.

So there he was in his car, driving to the only person he could think of to go to for this right now. Kenny was aware she'd asked for a break with all that stuff, but Kenny couldn't take it anymore. Since Sharky left, he'd not done it once. It'd been a full week, and it was actually starting to hurt. Kenny couldn't think of anything else, he couldn't focus on finding Sharky this way.

Kenny practically banged on Jessica's door in the literal afternoon. She arrived seconds later with a look of confusion clear on her face.

"You know Ken, every time you knock on my door I assume someone's attempting to break into my house." She said with a smile.

Kenny ignored her comment, grabbed the woman by her arms and pushed her further in the house until both people were in together. Kenny shut the door to the house and turned back around to Jessica.