DESOLATION

13 (Part 2)

INEZ

I put the gun back like he had placed it. I close the drawer, wipe my face, and make myself look presentable. Lorcan should not suspect anything because if he does then my plan will fail before I can proceed with it. I can still hear the shower running.

I calm down my heartbeat and walk towards where Lorcan is. From here, I can see him standing under the running shower. I have never done this before and that is the reason why my heart is beating so fast. He is facing the other side, that's why he cannot see me.

I fist my hands and slowly walk towards him. He still has not noticed me. The water falls on me making me wet. I open my hands and hesitantly wrap my arms around him from behind. I can feel his abs and his muscular body beneath my hands. I move closer and put my head against his back. My whole body is shaking. I feel like a rabbit in front of the lion. I let the tears fall. His muscles are tense beneath my touch. He must be confused by my action because I am sure he would not have expected it.

"I am sorry for how I acted, Lorcan. I should not have argued with you." I say to him softly. His muscles slowly relax. I am glad that the water pouring above us will not let him see my tears.

He puts his hands above mine and takes them off his body slowly. He turns around and looks at me. I am feeling so small in front of him. He puts his one hand on the side of my face and makes me look at him.

"I forgive you, Inez." He said and then leaned down to place his lips upon mine. I part my mouth slowly and let his tongue roam inside my mouth. Lorcan's hands snake around my waist and pull me closer to him to a point where our bodies are touching. He pulls away after a moment.

Morning

I look at the driveway as Lorcan's car speeds fast outside, taking Lorcan away. I continue to look till he is outside the property and the big gates close. I woke up early today and we had breakfast together. The weather is good today. Everything went like a usual day and thankfully he did not suspect my actions.

I start walking inside the mansion.

"A Mhama, an dtabharfainn sú chugat?" A maid asks me upon seeing me coming close to her. (Ma'am, should I bring you some juice)

"Níl." I say as I move past her. (No)

I quickly enter my room and go straight towards the closet. I take out Lorcan's gun. I am glad that he rarely takes it with him, giving me the opportunity to use it today. I hope there are bullets inside it but I don't know how to use it. I have often seen Lorcan do something to a gun before shooting. I try to remember what he always does and repeat the same. At first, nothing happened. I must be doing it wrong. I repeated the steps again and then I heard a 'tick'. I did it. I don't want to shoot anyone innocent but I should be prepared.

I take a deep breath and think of my decision again. It is dangerous and my plan might fail but this is the only way I can go to meet Evelyn. A new determination fills inside me. Yes, I am going to do it. I pick up my purse and put my passport and some money in it. I plan to get out of the property and go straight towards the airport. Once I am out of this country, I will think of what I should do next.

I exit my room and close the door. I just have to reach the main gate without getting noticed. I put the gun in my bag because if someone sees me with it then guards will be here in a second. They will inform Lorcan and he will come back to torture me. Luckily I met no one on my way to the main doors.

Just as I step out of the main doors a guard comes towards me with a stern face. He looks towards my bag and then his gaze moves towards me.

"A Mhaime, ar mhaith leat dul áit éigin?" He asked me with utter respect. (Ma'am, do you want to go somewhere?)