DESOLATION

7

INEZ

"Inez." A growl reached my ears when I was convincing my mind to jump and not be scared of committing suicide. I tightly clutched the hem of my dress and closed my eyes. I did not turn back to look at Lorcan because I knew he would be furious right now. I know if I turn back now and look at his face, then my body will freeze and I will never be able to free myself from this life. His one glare will shake my resolve. His fear will overpower all my thoughts.

"Jump! Free yourself from this life. I dare you to jump and see where this leads you." He said in a calm deadly voice. Tears rolled down my eyes. His threat is enough to evoke his fear which I was trying to suppress. Yes, I am scared to do it but the thing I dread is what if he saves me? What will happen to me then? For sure it will be worse than committing suicide.

His confidence has scared me to the core. He did not tell me to come down but instead, he encouraged me to do it. He did not stop me but threatened me. He is sure that nothing will happen to me and he will keep me alive. What choice do I have now? If I try it now and he saves me then I will have to face hell which he will bring upon me. I wipe my tears and look ahead.

Defeatedly, I was going to climb down the railing but suddenly my foot slipped and I saw the sky move. Before I could have fallen a tight grip on my arm saved me and pulled me back on the floor. I look at Lorcan horrified who is now looking at me in anger. In that one moment, I experienced the fear of death but I should not be afraid of death, I should be afraid of my husband who is looking at me like he wants to kill me.

"This time, you have crossed all limits.

You have started to forget with whom you are dealing. My patience and leniency have made you forget who I am but I will gladly remind you today," Lorcan said menacingly. My lip started to tremble and my heartbeat increased.

"L-Lorcan, I..." I started to say but he cut me off with his deadly glare. His gray eyes had turned almost black now.

"Don't you dare to utter those words when you don't mean them!" He snapped.

Before I could speak, he dragged me inside the room and threw me on the bed. I bounced on the bed and then turned to look at him. Horror struck me when I saw him taking off his clothes while looking at me with anger. This is not the first time he is angry with me.

I have seen this crazy look in his eyes in the past. This has happened before too, a lot of time, and none of them ended well for me. He took off his shirt and threw it across the room. I clutched the sheet in my grip and moved back towards the bedpost. My whole body was shaking with fear. I feel like my heart would jump out of my chest.

"Lorcan... forgive m-me." I pleaded but it fell on deaf ears. Lorcan just continued to look at me with a horrifying unforgiving gaze. Now he is just in his pants.

"I will forgive you darling but after teaching you a lesson. Today I will show you how I can punish you in several ways just by using your own body. About you, I don't know but I am going to enjoy it a lot." He said and a dark devilish grin appeared on his face. His cruel intentions are evident on his face.

Lorcan climbed on the bed. I tried to move away from him but he grabbed my ankle and pulled me towards him. A shriek left my lips as I looked at him with pleading eyes. Now I was completely under him, under his mercy.

I felt wetness around my eyes and on my cheeks. Lorcan looked at my wet cheeks and smirked. He gently wiped my tears and leaned down towards my neck. I left the sheets and pressed my hands against his chest in a futile attempt to create distance between us but it was futile. He chuckled and then I felt his warm breath on my neck. I could feel his muscles beneath my cold hands. His bare chest beneath my hands made me feel something that I did not want to feel in this condition.