DESOLATION

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INEZ's POV

I continue to stand there while crying at my misery. I am crying at my fate. Lorcan is a heartless beast who does not care about anyone except himself. He is so obsessed with me that he cannot bear anyone coming close to me. He hates it when I laugh with someone and try to make friends. He has made it clear that he hates it if anyone other than him touches me. He wants to cage me.

His obsession with me is ruining my life but he only cares about what he desires. He does not care about my feelings and he doesn't love me either. His words are just a facade. He always claims to love me but never tries to prove it. If he had even for once tried to show me his love by giving importance to what I wanted then things would have been different between us from my side. I would have thought about giving him a chance.

He always gives me only tears. For him, I am just an object, a thing he possesses. I am nothing more than that in his eyes and he has said it a lot of times. He likes to call me his doll and he is right. I am a doll that is forced to obey his every command and wishes.

"Iníon, Please sit inside the car. I am afraid that you might get sick. He will not like this and will be angry at me. It is getting colder." Cathal's voice brings me out of my sad trance of thoughts. I look towards him and around me. I am standing under the shade with the umbrella in my hand.

He is standing a few steps away from me while holding an umbrella to save himself from getting wet because of the heavy downpour. He is looking at me with his straight face and his eyes reflect cruelty and coldness.

He is just like him. He has trained all his men to be like him. Lorcan does not like to keep weak people near him. He always says that there is no room for any weak person in his line of business. He hates those who are weak. I don't understand what made him love a weak person like me who cannot even stand up for herself. (Miss)

Anger consumes me. I am feeling anger all inside me. Lorcan has ruined my life. He never leaves me alone. I am now tired of this. When he is not with me, his men are always near me to remind me of him. I hate him. I want to be alone and away from him and his men. I will not sit in this car. I want some free time without anyone reminding me of that man.

I continue to look towards Cathal with anger. I close my eyes and think one more time about what I am going to do. I will think about Lorcan later and the consequences later. Right now, I need some time alone so that I can relax and tell myself that one day this horrible nightmare will end.

I put the phone inside the purse and opened the umbrella. Instead of sitting inside the car, I turn away from Cathal and start walking in the heavy rain away from him. Thank God! I chose to wear long rain boots today. In the morning I did not know that I would be walking in the rain today but I love this feeling of walking in the rain.

I wish I had a chance or some way to leave Lorcan. I would have gladly taken it. Only I know how much I desire a life away from him.

"Iníon? Iníon Inez. Where are you going?" I hear Cathal's voice but I don't stop and continue to walk. To hell with him and Lorcan. I will not look at him or go with him. I know he will never dare to touch me or drag me forcefully with him towards the car. (Miss, Miss Inez)

Suddenly Lorcan's words enter my mind reminding me of a day when he had taken me out for dinner,

"I will not tolerate anyone touching or coming near you. If someone dares to touch you then I will cut off that hand. Your everything belongs to me now. Your smile, your thoughts, your body, your heart, and even your soul are only mine now. It depends on you how much you want to test me, my piscín." (Kitten)