Lover || Milo Manheim

5.4

February 17th, 2023

Madeline's pov
"Do you think we'll be friends forever?" Amelia laughed as Macy slapped my forehead "why are you talking like that?" I was laying upside on Macy's bed while they were sprawled out on her floor. "Sometimes I really miss Jenny and Tyler and JJ" Macy snorted "I have to film with JJ again... eventually not saying when" Amelia and I laughed at her trying to be secretive about Stranger Things 5.

"Yeah I miss them too" Amelia said quietly and Macy shrugged "they betrayed us doesn't me we're going to do the same" Macy got on her knees and Spider-Man kissed my chin before standing up "I'm getting an otter pop, want one?" I shook my head no but Millie jumped up "green apple please" Macy gave her a thumbs up and walked out. "I love you Maddie, and Macy loves you too. What happened with Jenny, JJ, and Tyler won't happen to us".

I sat up slowly feeling the blood rush away from my head, the swelling slowly going down "I'm not happy Mills" Macy walked back into her room and sat next to me on the bed while Millie kneeled at my feet her chin resting on my thighs. "Why aren't you happy?" Macy looked at me sadly and handed Millie her otter pop before leaning against me. "I just feel so unalike myself, this whole shit with Wednesday and then my fans I just feel like I don't know who I am anymore you know?".

Macy nodded against my head "yeah I do that's why I don't use Instagram anymore. It makes life so much better actually I don't use any social media, maybe  that's just what you need to do? You only know what they're saying because you associate with them so much" Millie nodded "I personally love social media but yeha I totally agree with Mace. If being present in this world is genuinely making you unahappy just leave it".

I felt the tears run down my face as I brown down in front of my best friends "I don't want to be taken as a joke, and that's all Wednesday is to everyone a joke. I'm a joke my art is a joke I just don't feel happy with the direction of my life like I feel so lost it's like I don't even know who I am anymore" Macy wrapped her arms around my body sometime during my speech and Millie just laid her head in my lap her arms wrapped around my waist.

"I'm not naive, I've always known acting comes with its challenges but I've always been ok with it but I dunno recently it's just been getting too much. I also kinda really hate living in LA" we all laughed and Macy wiped my tears away as Millie stood up to sit next to me. "Yeah LA really sucks" I leaned against my friends happy I had them.

"It really sucks that we can't always be together anymroe but I'm so happy for you Millie, I know you've always wanted to tour around and I'm so happy E-mails I Can't Send have been so healing for you! And even though you refuse to work on Stranger Things I'm so happy you're with Jake and that you genuinely love your life Mace" she smiled at me and kissed my nose "everything will workout Mads, I promise".

I didn't respond to them mainly because I didn't know how to feel but also because I didn't want to burden them any further. "Since this is the last time we'll probably see Millie we should probably go off and do something" Amelia rolled her eyes and stood up "I'm not even supposed to be with you guys my manager said I needed rest I for tomorrow nights show so really you're just distracting me and keeping me unfocused, I'm supposed to be on vocal rest" Macy stood up and covered Millie's mouth her hand "perfect! Now you're shutting up and resting then vocals, let's go get some food.

When I made it back home Luna and Milo were laying on the couch watching Cobra Kai. "Why are you guys always watching this show?" At the same time they both said "Hawk is hot" I smiled and playfully slapped Milo's head. "Hey I was wondering if I could talk to you guys about something kind of important". I didn't really want to worry Milo and Luna but I also didn't want them to think I was being a dickhead or anything.