controversial thoughts n opinions

is it crazy I'm not scared to be alone?

I find this situation so funny lol

Yeah right

Ain't no way a delhi guy is vanilla

He was like

I masturbated to your Profile pic 💀

I literally asked him how tf u spoke w me the next day after doing that!??

Because we literally spoke for hours that day, and he was sort of tryna pick a fight.

I had no idea why.

Then I realise it.

He was horny and he was trying to hide it.

This dude literally goes crazy when I say something just a little too hot bruh

Like that day he told me to join one call we had.

And I was like "I'm taking a shower"

Bro went like TMI, you don't need to tell me that.

Bruh.

Motherfucker.

I actually told him of an incident previously where I just came out of the shower in a towel and I was in a zoom call with my camera on.

Lol.

I have a camera guard lol😌☝️

But that made him crazy, he got so turned on lol.

That was definitely fun.

Lol

He told me that he genuinely liked me (Bruh)

But then after we sexted it kinda turned into something else.

He told me that he would get horny everytime i called.

Bruh.

But honestly

He is not a very bad guy

He is actually being so gentle (dk if its pretense)

But bruh

He makes me so damn horny.

We kinda did it over phone.

Lol

He was like "I'll rub it on your thighs and kiss you while sucking your boobs"

Shit man.

Then my manager called.

I got an award also❤️💐

Lol

🤓😐💀

And here's the thing we were talking on work hours over the phone and I was literally working while he said that lol.

Basically he is a developer and I test the stuff.

He was like "I want to hold you tight and fuck you like crazy"

While i was like "I found a defect bro"

🤓🤘🤣🤣🤣🤣

Nah cuz why not😌☕️

Dude calls me "babe" while sexting man

What tf is that bs

Like babe is for the peasants🤣🤣🤣🤣

He switched to princess but i asked him to call me Milady

Anyways so

It was so good.

It was fucking good.

He is so gentle🥲❤️

When he says things like I want to hold you tight and kiss you...

Or I want to eat you like a mess and watch you cum

Shit bro

I want a guy to take care of me too.

Do all of that.

But...

I am also scared.

I am really scared.

I met my friend today

She reminded me that this has no fucking future.

He is leaving for abroad.

Once he comes back he will...

He will get a girl from his community

One that his mom likes.

And he will

Do all the things he told me to her

He will undress her

Then hold her tightly

Kiss her

Eat her out

Make love to her

Where does that leave me?

In my room working hard all day

Struggling to solve questions and pass the exam.

While keeping my full time job

He might be keeping her warm at night...

Loving her down.

While I...

Will be wide awake drinking tea and studying.

Hah...What a cold world.

Its bitter.

Once you know of the warmth, its hard to forget.

But then I remember how hard my dad worked to get me here.

How much my mom sacrificed for us.

How much I have suffered and still stood up.

There might be no meaning to this Sisyphean days.

But since I was given free will

I would like to assign meaning to it.

I am doing it for myself

I am doing it for the lovely girl who deserves to be happy.

Yeah i want to stay firm and stubborn.

It might not seem like it now but boys will come and go.

It is really not that deep as it seems to be.

I am just

I think I am just horny.

I'll fuck him once my exams are over if he comes back to india and get over it

👍

I guess it was wrong for a gutter rat to dream of the moon haha

But I am still happy because I'll always have my family, my doggy,
anime, manhwas n ofc wattpad hahaha.

Yeah i could be 30, 45, or an 80 yr old grandma and I'd still scream while reading fanfictions and manhwas hahaha

When i look around at people of my age desperate for someone...

It feels kind of crazy...

That I'm not scared to be alone.