Make You Feel My Love

Make it Go Away

Chan POV

I stood in the entryway, watching, Felix's arm around my shoulder for comfort- waiting for Changbin and Jeongin to arrive. Hyunjin was making coffee in the kitchen. He was having almost as much issue with the situation as I was.

As soon as Bin had sent the text to the group, others had started to filter back, all converging in my apartment, similar looks of worry on their faces. Jisung and Seungmin sat in the living room, Seungmin folded up on Jisung lap- like they'd switched neediness since the last time I'd seen them. Felix and Hyunjin had gotten back first- throwing themselves into caretaking mode, making drinks and snacks. Felix had not left my side, shadowing me , his eyes ever watching- worried.

"He's safe, mate. They'll be back soon. Changbin has him." He assured me, shaking me by the shoulder a bit. "There's nobody better to trust him with, aside from you." He comforted me.

I shook my head. "But he ran away from me." I refused, turning toward him. "I'm not being what he needs, Lix. What am I doing wrong?" I lamented, at a loss. "I try not to bring it up- but I know it's eating away at him." I sighed, crossing my arms. "So I do what he asked me to do- be with him. I'm completely at his disposable- checking in, available. I haven't been working too late, or anything- and if I'm ten minutes late, I make sure to check in- I can't..." I swallowed, frighting emotions I didn't need to be be feeling. "I'm shit at this."

Felix, grabbed me in a rough hug, shaking his head. "Naur- you're perfect for Jeongin. But you don't need to keep punishing yourself for being who you are." He paused, thinking. "What do you try not to bring up? Being a workaholic- I mean we all know that." He teased.

Shit. 

Changbin hadn't told him. I was grateful for that, really- Bin could always be trusted to keep things close to his chest. But I'd assumed he would have mentioned Jeongin's situation to his lovers. 

"Lix." I said- my voice catching. "Something happened to Jeongin- he was hurt. Because I was being selfish and stupid and buried myself in work." I confessed, watching his expression change immediately from teasing to concerned.

"What do you mean hurt?" He asked clearly, each syllable sharp- his tone scary.

I shook my head. "He doesn't really remember. But it's not good- There was a guy and he blacked out." I spoke low- not wanting the others to know yet. "If I had been there-"

"Chan." Felix cut me off, his hands gripping my arms so hard I'd have fingernail marks. "Are you saying what I think you're saying?" He asked, his eyes going dark.

I couldn't say the words. I just couldn't. I closed my eyes in defeat, and nodded, confirming his fears.

"Fuck!" he spat out. He released me, turning away, threading his hands through his hair in frustration. "Fucking cunts." He grumbled, turning back toward me. "Who knows?" His eyes were feral- wild and ruthless. Felix didn't have that look often... but when he did, there was nothing that stopped him from his actions.

I started at him- his fury surprising. "Bin. Minho. Jackson." I said quietly. "But even I don't really have details. Jeongin won't talk about it." I shook my head. "He's too proud."

"How the fuck is he dealing then?" Felix wondered, clearly confused.

"I don't know, Lix- I think he's just trying to forget. Ignore it." I swallowed- not wanting to say what I was really thinking.