Make You Feel My Love

One Day

Hyunjin POV

I yawned, stretched, my eyes heavy with residual jetlag. I just couldn't seem to shake it. I'd arrived home almost two full days before, but I just wasn't able to make myself stay awake. I hoped I hadn't caught some bug in my travels- not that it would be the first time.

I loved being involved in the dazzling, fashionable events that took me around the world- and the extra income I earned from it helped me see a comfortable future beyond... well I didn't want to think of that.

I hated thinking about the future in that way. I could ever image my life not on stage, dancing and singing and feeling free to express myself...with my family.

Felix had brought it up the night before at dinner, one too many glasses of wine maybe making him melancholy and losing himself in whatever might happen down the road as he phrased it. In his defense I think he was planning our future together as a family- not insinuating any... halting of the group, but it had me lost in my feels, as I often found myself- overthinking, worrying that some day they might just leave me behind, living a happy married life without me.

I rubbed my eyes with the heel of my hands, yawning aggressively. The husbands were already up- no wonder, considering it was already nearly 11 am. I remembered Lix saying he had a salon appointment and Bin was in the studio producing for one of the companies girl groups until after lunch. We planned to meet for mani pedis later.

I wandered to the bathroom, finding the eerie silence of our apartment simultaneously comforting and concerning. I stepped in, letting the near scalding water wash over me, my eyes closing as my mind replayed the words from the night before.

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"Where do think we'll be in 10 years?" Felix wondered as he walked back to the dining table from the kitchen, a fresh glass of white wine in his hand. He smiled, extending a second glass to me as he sank onto Changbin's lap like second nature.

"Hopefully you'll be exactly here." Binnie flirted, kissing him on the neck, griping his waist as he held him to his lap.

"Bin!" he giggled. "Stop!" he shrilled. "Of course, in your lap- or Hyune's, yes... but like... I mean we'll be like real adults then." He prompted. "You ever think about....?" He trailed off.

"I try not to." Changbin grimaced. "The guys are... my whole damn life, it's hard to think that way." Binnie admitted. "But- I mean I think I'll always be in music- producing, maybe one day Ji and Channie and I will officially break away and start our own label?" He considered. "That was always the goal." He confessed. "Sung would probably be our first solo artist if it came to that.- He's never not going to singing."

"What about you, Hyune?" Felix asked and I recoiled, almost pissed he was asking.

"I'm not talking about this- it's like asking for bad things to happen." I shook my head.

"Prince- no...." Changbin soothed reaching for my hand. "Okay. What if we phrased it different.. what would you do if you could do anything in the whole world?" he soothed.

Well... everything. I wanted to do everything. 

"I guess I'd still paint..." I shrugged. "Maybe have an exhibit? Or modeling. I like modeling." I agreed. "Maybe design something?" I chewed my lip....