Daylight - Paige Bueckers

prepare to get sick of me, bueckers

May 15, 2023

Paige's POV:

Two days have passed since the argument, and the silence between Alex and me has been heavy. We haven't spoken much, and when we do, it's usually just polite exchanges or brief texts. The air is thick with unresolved tension, and it's starting to wear on me. I miss how easy it was between us, and I'm tired of this awkward distance. 

It's a rainy afternoon, and I'm sitting at my desk, scrolling through tik tok but finding it nearly impossible with my mind racing. I glance at the clock and realize that I haven't seen Alex since our last conversation. I'm not sure if she's avoiding me or just as unsure about how to fix things as I am.

I decide it's time to stop letting this drag on, considering I leave tomorrow to go back to Minnesota for a few weeks. I pick up my phone and shoot Alex a text, hoping it might open a door to resolving things.

Alex Abrams

Hey 

Can we talk today 

yeah

wanna come over?

Sure

Be there soon

I agree, feeling a mix of relief and anxiety. I get ready quickly, trying to shake off the nervous energy that's been building. When I arrive at Alex's house, it's quiet, the rain outside creating a soothing backdrop. I knock on the door, and she opens it for me, her posture slightly stiff but her expression neutral.

I approach her, taking a deep breath before following her inside to the living room. We sit down across from each other on the couch, she looks up, and there's a moment of silence before she speaks.

"Hey," she says softly, her voice cautious.

"Hey," I reply, trying to keep my tone even. "Thanks for agreeing to talk."

Alex nods, taking a sip of her water. "I didn't want to keep ignoring things. We need to talk."

I nod in agreement. "So, I've been thinking a lot about what happened, and I realize that I let my insecurities get the best of me. I shouldn't have reacted the way I did."

Alex's expression softens, though there's still a hint of tension. "I get that. And I'm sorry too. I didn't mean to make you feel like I'm still hung up on Kate. I was just trying to be honest, and I didn't handle it well."

We sit in silence for a moment, the weight of the argument still lingering but starting to ease. I take a deep breath, trying to articulate my thoughts clearly.

"It's just that sometimes, hearing about your past makes me feel like I'm not measuring up," I say, my voice steady. "I need to feel like we're moving forward together, not that there's something from your past that's still unresolved."

Alex nods, her eyes reflecting understanding. "I know. And I want to be clear: I'm with you. Kate is in the past. I'm sorry if I made you feel otherwise."

I appreciate her honesty, feeling a sense of relief. "Thank you for saying that. I just needed to hear it. I just want us to be on the same page."

Alex reaches across the couch, placing her hand over mine. "I want that too."