A Love So True

Chapter 14

They stayed at that position for don't know how long. Ishan was very tired both mentally and physically. His defence broke totally when Shubman fell upon him and started crying painfully. The whimper came from the deep pressure on throat made Ishan realised one things , things were not as normal as it seems. Shubman's sudden rage , unpredictable behaviour , repeating one certain issue several times and then broke down suddenly is clearly indicating , he has some anxiety issue. Still he couldn't make himself to forgive Shubman. If Shubman needs therapy that's other matter , but if he gets Ishan's forgiveness today that easily , he'll do this again . It will not be good for any of them.

He pushed Shubman lightly , Shubman who was in a daze , jolted up. He realised earlier what damage he had done to their relationship. He was nearly forced himself on Ishan . The mountain of the guilty , sadness or anger on himself was crushing him .

He didn't dare to meet Ishan's eyes . Ishan did nothing wrong .

One thing he did wrong is ..... Loving him.

Loving him only gave Ishan pain .

Shubman has PTSD , he was on therapy . After Ishan came into his life , he didn't need sleeping pills anymore. He was confident , maybe overconfident. He stopped his medication. Maybe that triggered his symptoms more.

He felt like he was in a dream ...... nightmare.

He couldn't even properly remember the words he threw on Ishan but one thing he knew that he abused him , questioned his dignity and loyalty , humiliated him infront of Nehal and his mother .......and the worst he almost forced himself on him.

What a Shame , Shubman.

He cursed himself in his mind. He had no intention to fall in love or make someone fall in love with him. He got married because he couldn't bear his son's suffering anymore , his desperate plead for Mother's love.

How unfortunate he is . First he fell in love with a woman , gave her his world. Never listened to anyone and blindly believed her.

What he got by loving someone with all of his heart ?

Betreyal

Pain

Humiliation

Mental health issues

His motherless child

He still dared to fall in love . Why didn't he stop himself? His life was already ruined , he is ruining a innocent person's life .

He hates that woman.

She made his child suffer .

She made him insane that led to Ishan's suffering. It was very painful for him to see tears in Ishan's eyes. He made him cry .

He hate himself too .

Ishan saw Shubman was sitting on the corner of the bed silently , staring at the floor in a daze . It's not normal. Shubman was energetic and cheerful. Why suddenly he became like this ?

Ishan wanted to touch his shoulder but he pulled back his hand before it touched Shubman. He needed some time.

He loves Shubman , didn't want to leave him but couldn't forgive him so easily after what he did .

It would be better for their relationship that they get separated for some days or weeks.

He should tell Shahneel di everything. She knows his brother very well.

The sound of door closing broke Shubman's trance. Ishan left the room.

One thing was stinging him like fishbone .