Closure (BxB) [sequel to SAS] *ON HIATUS*

Chapter thirty-five:

no, you're not dreaming, lmao.

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Brian's POV:

The flight home felt like forever, and like it wasn't enough, I was all by myself, due to the fact Olivia and Fred sat with their booths one next to each other, and I didn't have Zach to be by my side.

Ugh, I miss him so much already. How am I supposed to live without him for the next three months?

I don't even feel good for him, honestly. Paris seems like an insane city, not even in a good way, and the French people weren't really kind to those who don't speak French... (Thank god Olivia knows how to speak French or else we were doomed).

And obviously, I'm jealous he gets to live out his dream, while my dream is being crushed. I'm never going to be a professional football player.

I also feel like shit because of it.

Clearly, I want my boyfriend to be happy, and successful. So why can't I feel happy for him at all right now? Is it just jealousy? I need this attitude to go away ASAP.

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After we went through border control and baggage claim I hugged Olivia and Fred goodbye, even though Olivia offered us to share a cab and for her to pay for it. To be honest, as much as it was a generous offer, I refused since I wanted to be alone, which is funny, because I'm already so bummed about being without Zach, but I just don't want to be near anyone right now if it's not Zach.

Needless to say how depressing it was to return to our apartment.

Seeing his half-empty closet, like why did he even take so many clothes? Didn't he say he'll be just backing all day long? why would he need so many clothes?

I took a deep breath, trying to inhale as much of his scent as I could.

I feel so pathetic right now.

I better get some sleep, Sophomore year is starting in a week.

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"what do you think, Brian?" Olivia stared at me.

"huh? Sorry, I got lost in my thoughts" I admitted.

"ugh! Brian this is serious! Sophomore year party is a very important deal for me!!!" she frowned.

"sorry 'livia, what were you debating about?" I asked and made sure to actually listen this time.

"Should the color theme be pink, 'cus duh, Barbie was like the most important movie to come out this year, or, black, 'cus Oppenheimer was also released this year and was like I don't know, I guess a big deal as well? I'm not sure, I've never watched the thing, like, three hours of bombs and boredom? No thank you" she said, and I could see Fred rolling his eyes at this.

"umm, how about a Barbenheimer-themed party? Get the best of both worlds" I said.

"oh my god Brian, you're such a genius! I can't believe I didn't think about this!" she started clapping excitedly.