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"baby" i said holding the tests
"what do they say?"
"im pregnant" i looked at him.
he looked at the tests and started cheering jumping up and down. i was relieved to see that he was actually happy. it made me happy, i could tell he was going to be a good father. i cheered with him til we were out of breath.
"so what to do we do now?" agent asked.
"we buy stuff for it"
"we don't even know the gender yet"
"you're right. let's just wait." i said giving him kisses.
"okay baby"
"im really sleepy, ima nap okay, come lay with me"
we laid in bed then we drifted off to sleep.
i woke up a few hours later craving food.
"baby"
"yeah?" he said turning off the game
"i want food"
"what you want to eat?"
"i don't know"
"wingstop?"
"yes." i said quickly.
"let's go" he said getting up and grabbing the keys.
the car ride was quiet but not that quiet until we got to wingstop.
"what do you want baby"
"10 pc combo mild w large dr pepper and fries with ranch."
"okay did you get that?"
"yes." she said tapping the ipad.
"and i'll get the 8 pc lemon pepper with corn and garlic bread"
shortly we got our food and i ate all of it. i was so hungry.
we left and we headed to the beach. i love going to the beach at night.
we laid on the sand face to face and talked and talked.
"so what what you wanna name the baby if it was a girl" i asked.
"hmm probably paris. how about you?" he said turning to face me.
"tara"
" that's pretty"
"thank you." i smiled.
he held me close as i started to drift off to sleep.
i woke up on sand without agent next to me.
"where was he?"
i got up and started looking for him. i found him in the parking lot talking to some girl after i almost walked in on them then i started to eavesdrop.
"i know but how am i gonna tell her i don't want the baby?" he asked the girl as my heart shattered.
he didn't want the baby? at all?
"just let her down easy. don't keep it from her." the girl explained.
"okay." he said walking away. i quickly ran back to where i woke up at and sat down and looked at the ocean trying to process everything that just happened and everything that was just said.
"oh you're up. hey baby." he sat down next to me.
"hi." i said dryly.
"you okay?" he asked rubbing my back.
"yeah i wanna go home." i said slightly moving away from his touch.
"okay. are you sure everything's okay?"
i nodded my head as we walked back to the car. the ride home was once again quiet but this time the music wasn't playing like it always is. i was really upset. all this time he doesn't want the baby?
"do you wanna listen to some music?"
all i did was ignore him. i was so lost in my thoughts, i couldn't say anything.
"cat?" he asked again.
"what agent" i said with base in my tone.
"yo what's wrong with you?!" he slightly shouted.
"you don't want my fucking baby?!" i yelled.
the car went quiet.
"it's not like i don't want it."
"then what is it agent."
"i just don't want it"
"why fucking not?!" i yelled getting angry.
"because i'm not ready!" he yelled back.
"why?!"
"because i don't want anything to do with that stupid fucking baby" he said hitting the steering wheel as i flinched and went quiet. i was hurt by what he said.
"im sorry i didn't mean that, im so sorry" he tried apologizing. i just didn't answer at all. i was so hurt and tired i didn't feel like talking anymore.
"cat im so sorry." he apologized again. i just shrugged my shoulders as a response so he can stop fucking talking before i snap on him again.
we finally got home and i just fell on my bed and fell asleep. i didn't even care if i had sand anywhere. this was my house.
