Dangerous Desires

09

He was silently watching me as I continued to talk with his men and he saw how I stopped and looked at him. The moment I looked over at him, his heart skipped a beat and he silently froze up for a moment as he locked eyes with me. After he got over the sudden rush of emotions, he silently returned his smile to me.

Even though he smiled, he silently felt his heartbeat continue to thump a bit in his chest. He took in a small breath and took several seconds to try to calm himself, silently chiding himself for how his heart was beating just from seeing me look at him.

After a few moments, he managed to quell his heartbeat and he stopped silently chiding himself over his own heart starting to beat faster when I looked at him. His thoughts and emotions were beginning to quiet down while he was watching me continue talking with his men.

"I didn't know you were going away for a week for a business trip," I spoke to Arsenio.

He nodded his head at me when I mentioned his upcoming business trip, his expression becoming a bit more serious when I mentioned the trip. "Yeah, just for a week though." He spoke in a soft tone, his gaze locked in mine.

He silently watched me twiddle my fingers, his eyes never leaving. He saw how my expression became a bit sadder when I started to twiddle my fingers. He silently wanted to reach out and take my hand to stop me but he kept his hands to himself.

He watched me silently for a few more moments, he wanted to reach out to me. He saw how I continued to twiddle my fingers and he could tell that I was not happy about him having to leave. He silently took in a breath while he continued to look at me, his heart ached to see me saddened.

He silently took a step towards me but he stopped himself, he refrained from immediately rushing and comforting me. He silently looked at me for a few more moments while I continued to twiddle my fingers, the sight of me being saddened was killing his heart.

"Where are you going? Can I come?" I asked gently.

He watched as my expression brightened up when I asked for the chance to come with him. He stood there silently looking at me, he was feeling several different conflicting emotions all at once just from me asking about going with him. He wanted to accept my offer, hell, he wanted to accept immediately. He stood there, his mind was silently debating with itself for a few moments.

He continued to look at me silently, continuing to fight a mental war in his mind. Part of him wanted to immediately accept my request and tell me that I could go with him. He wanted to go over to me and hold me tight while telling me that I could go with him. But another part of him silently wanted to reject my request, to tell me that I had to stay and it would be better if I didn't come with him.

His heart was pounding and his mind was screaming conflicting thoughts at him, he was caught between two different options of how to respond. He was staring at me the whole time he was fighting within himself and he could see how hopeful I looked that he would let me tag along.

"It's fine, I get it. You could just say it, instead of just standing there. You have been so weird lately," I said going up to my room. He internally cursed himself as he saw my expression change, he silently tried to reach out for me as he saw me turn and start to walk up to my room. 

 A bit later, he silently sat at his desk alone in his office, thinking about what had occurred a short while ago when I asked if I could tag along with him. He was going over the events again and again in his head, silently scolding himself for how he acted and how he failed to say or do something.

"Hey..." I said gently.

He quickly spoke up when he saw that I had entered his office, his expression softened when he spoke in a soft tone. "Hey..."

"The others explained that I couldn't go, I understand," I spoke softly.

He took in a small breath and spoke to me in a soft tone. "I'm...sorry that you won't be able to come with me."

"It's okay," I replied with a soft smile "I just don't want to be alone here,".

He spoke in a soft tone, his heart silently screaming at him to not have to leave me alone here. "I...wish I didn't have to go."

He was feeling a deep pain in his chest seeing my smile and hearing me say that I didn't want to be left alone while he was away. He silently thought over how he wished he didn't have to leave for a week and would much rather stay behind and spend time with me instead.

"Do you really have to go?" I walked closer to him.

He spoke to me in a soft and pained tone, his expression showing how much he didn't want to have to leave. "I...unfortunately, do."

His heart was aching as he spoke, silently hating the fact that he had to leave and couldn't stay. His eyes silently studied me as I stood in front of him, a small pain in his chest was still present while he looked at me.

He was silently watching me as I began to undress myself, his eyes going wide as I began to take off my blouse. He could feel his heart begin to pound as I continued to undress myself in front of him, his mind quickly becoming blank as he tried to say something. He ended up only managing a single word, his tone quiet and shocked. "Whoa..."

He stayed where he was, watching as I moved and started to lower my skirt, his breath starting to quicken as he watched.