22| Self Doubts

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It’s been two days after our date

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It’s been two days after our date. Today was Monday again, and I had college like always. Even though I still
have this lingering fear in my heart because of what happened last day, but still I was happy I would be able to meet him today. I couldn’t meet him yesterday because apparently he had some urgent work to attend.

With a smile on my lips, I brushed my hair and tied in a bun, because it’s the month of August, it feels really hot and I have to always tie my hair. I was done with getting ready and after grabbing my backpack I went downstairs.

“Good Morning, Bhai!” I wished enthusiastically to my brother who was reading a newspaper sitting in the living room. He looked up from the newspaper and returned my greeting. Everything felt so happy and perfect until I turned around to see my parents.

Shit, I forgot. They were supposed to return today itself. Almost after two months of staying away from your parents a normal child would run up to them, hug them and probably rant everything about whatever happened in their lives till now. But so was not my happening in my case. My happy mood was ruined immediately and my smile dropped.

“Arushi, come here.” I heard dad who called me firmly and I slowly approached them. They were sitting on the table having their breakfast. “Hello ma, hello baba, how are you two?” I wished them sitting on a chair across them. They didn’t smile nor did they ask about me, if I was doing good, nothing. My dad just straightaway asked, “Are you studying well? Remember by next year you need to get a good job.”

I wouldn’t have been so mad at them had they at least first showed some concern to me. I said nothing and just nodded my head, my mood completely spoiled. I just grabbed a toast and started applying butter on it when mom started speaking now.

“Arushi, remember if you fail to secure a good job, we’ll disown you. Though I don’t have much expectations from you. Also stop putting so much butter on your food. You’re already so fat, if you eat more no guy would like you. You’re already so bad in studies at least try to look good. God knows what will happen to you. I seriously sometimes wish I only had Akash as my only child.”

She says it again. She already said it before, she doesn’t wishes to have me as her child. But is that my fault? I just wanted to have a normal life like others and normal loving parents. The butter knife fell of my hand as I couldn’t continue with what I was doing. I couldn’t even eat the bread as it too fell off my hands.

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