please, don't

Definition of ugly is

"So, call me, yeah? I'll really need you at the moment so will she. So don't pull away again."

I stared at him through the car window.

I just want to get inside my home.

Why won't he just leave?

Why won't he understand that I can't?

He tilted his head to the side, examining me.

And it scared me.

It scares me to know that he can know my secret at any moment.

"I will, bye, Felix."

I quickly ran to my house, not sparing him another look. And that might have looked suspicious cause I can hear him calling for me. But at that moment, I didn't care. I just wanted to get away from him.

In any possible way.

Closing the door of my house behind me, I've never felt safer.

I took a big breath, trying my best to calm myself down.

But then I heard a voice.

"Hyunjin ?"

I looked at the owner of the voice through my teary eyes.

And then I looked at Yeji.

And I don't know why, but I felt betrayed. I felt like someone was invading my privacy, and she didn't even try to stop it.

"W-what are you doing here?"

"I called Jisung."

The said guy walked towards me and pulled me in a hug.

I didn't know how much I needed that, till it happened.

But it was nice.

I felt myself go weak in his arms, and I just let my tears flow.

"Why-why would you call him?"

I saw her wipe her own tears, and I don't know how that made me feel.

It wasn't a pleasant sight, though.

"Cause you won't let me help you! So I thought having the closest person to you here might make you open up."

It does kinda help.

It still sucks to be put on the spot, though.

"Jinnie, what happened?"

I don't even know.

"Jisung, they are getting married. And he took me with him to show me their new home. He even- he even asked if I approve of them getting married."

It feels nice to let it out.

But it makes me feel like a bad person.

It makes me hate myself.

"Oh."

"The audacity of this guy! I will call and give both of them a piece of my mind!"

No.

No.

No.

No.

No.

No.

"Yeji, let's not do that."

"Jisung, I'm not gonna watch my broth - I'm not gonna watch Hyunjin fall like that because of them without doing anything!"

"Neither will I, but if we tell them- I'm sure Hyunjin won't be happy with that. Right, Hyunjin?"

I don't even know anymore.

"I just want to go to sleep."