please, don't

Let you break my heart again

"Will you stop dragging me with you!"

I harshly pulled my hand out of his.

I don't know what's gotten into him.

"I don't know what that was about, but you can't talk to her like that! I'll go check on ry-"

Suddenly, in a swift movement that I don't even know how happened, he pushed me against the wall, and all I can feel were his soft as a pillow pink lips against mine.

My eyes widened.

This was wrong.

But I couldn't stop myself from pulling him closer. I don't care if he'll come back to his senses soon, and he'll push me off, I'm taking every bit I can get.

It lasted a few seconds, a few seconds that felt like heaven to me.

He pulled away.

"Shit - Hyunjin, I'm so sorry."

You shouldn't be.

"You fucking should be sorry."

◇◇◇

I looked all over the place for Jisung, but I just couldn't find him.

I just want to go home.

But instead, I'm left alone in a place full of people that half of them I don't even know.

I was trying my best not to start crying cause I'd look very stupid.

"Hyun?"

I looked at the person who called for me.

"Minho hyung ?"

I haven't seen him in ages.

He looks even more handsome now.

"Are you okay? Why are you alone? Where's Lix?"

I left him.

I couldn't look at him.

I was scared that I'll ask him to kiss me again if I stayed with him any longer.

"Did you - did you see Jisung? I want to go home but I can't find him."

"Yeah, I think he made a quick run to the bathroom, I'll call him for you."

I watched as he pulled out his phone and called my friend.

I started to feel a bit dizzy, and I wanted to throw up so bad.

Tonight wasn't supposed to end like this.

It was supposed to be a good night. I was supposed to support my friends ' marriage.

Not fucking kiss her husband.

"So, what do you think about the kids getting married?"

My head was about to explode.

My eyes were getting blurry from my my tears.

I looked at the guy.

"I don't want them to get married."

Shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up.

Shut up.

He looked at me weird. It's like my answer didn't surprise him. Or maybe he thought I was joking.

"What? Do you like my future sister in law or something?"

No.

No, I don't fucking like Ryujin.

And don't funking call her that.

It makes them getting married sound real.

"No, I like Felix."

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Lixie:

Hey, Hyunnie. I understand if you're mad at me and if you don't want to talk to me anymore. Tho that one hurts. But I just wanted to say that I'm really, really sorry.

I'm actually beating myself for it.

And it has nothing to do with you coming out to me.

I just........I don't even know why I did it. I guess I was pissed that you were having a good time with San knowing that he was hitting on you.

But that is not an excuse!

I just don't want you to bail on the wedding tonight. For Ryujin's sake.

Again, I'm really sorry for kissing you without your permission.