Hello again (Tommy Lee Fanfiction)

Ch20 Taking a break

******All warnings apply smut

The note said: 'Jasmine, when you went into labor with Pandora and called to tell me you were bleeding I was so afraid that I was going to loose you. I know I've been really busy lately. The bleeding was a sign you were in labor. You were in labor for hours and was in and out of it. Since she wouldn't come out we had to do a c-section. I know you've been feeling isolated and alone.

I'm sorry I missed your birthday and you missed mine but if I slow down, I'll feel like life is passing me by. I would end up fighting with you every day. I don't want that. I am going to be very busy in the next few months. Please know that I love you and I will try to spend time with you and the girls on the holidays since we'll have off for those. I know if anyone will understand it is you. I love playing and am only doing Motley for Mick and the fans. I remember you saying how not playing practically drove Steve further into a depression and I believe Mick will die happy playing the guitar.

I know you're feeling depressed and alone. I want you to take Aphrodite and Pandora to my mother's house. She would love the company. Leave them there for however long you wish. I want you to go where you feel the most peace at. See your parents and friends in London. Take some time to yourself. That is my belated gift to you. I will do whatever it takes to see you smile. Go somewhere that will clear you head. The girls will be taken care of. You know my mom loves them and she needs some company. They will be safe there. I love you with all my heart, Thomas. PS. Don't tell anyone I signed my full name. Call my cell when you get to London and then when you feel calm again. I'd rather you go then to find you trying to hurt yourself or the girls.'

The note was folded so it was pretty long as you can tell. Tommy was doing so much. He was doing Tommyland, appearing on TV for different things, he was doing his book which was also called Tommyland and he was doing the reunion. Which I will tell you that didn't happen overnight. Maybe I walked in on one of their meetings and not the video shoot. The truth is I really don't know. My mind was as Tommy would put it not cleared.

Sometimes it happens after you have a baby. Your thoughts aren't your own. So I left the girls with Tommy's mom. She was excited. Before I left she put a card in my hand speaking Greek to me. I didn't really understand her but I looked at the card and it was a credit card with my name on it. She said, "Tommy, money."

"Tommy's money?" I asked.

"Ya-sue, yes."

"No." I went to give it back to her and she started speaking Greek again.

"He say gift." She said in English. "Insult, no take." I smiled at her and hugged her. I took the card and went to England. I went to a place Steve took me to once when I first met him which was when I was 11. He told me if he wasn't on tour he'd go to this place because he felt real peaceful there.

The place was at the Botanical gardens on Clarkehouse Rd. in Sheffield. You can look it up on line at Since I was in London first, I went to Chelsea physic garden which was a few blocks from the old flat Steve and I shared. I spent the day there after I visited my folks. The next day I went to another place in London Steve and I hung out for peaceful moments. It's a place near the Tower Bridge which is near the Tower of London. I spent a day there as well. Then I went to the Botanical Gardens in Sheffield.

I spent a long time there wishing I was in Tommy's arms. I sat in this great spot near the flowers. I realized it was close to Halloween now and Tommy was doing something for a cameo role in 10th and Wolf. I kept thinking about everything that happened to me. "I can't believe you gave me a black eye."

I opened my eyes to see Tommy standing in front of me leaning against this pole. His hair was greased back and he was wearing the pin stripe suit with the chain hanging on his pocket. He had his hands in his pockets and his eye had a little black around it and his lip was somewhat healed. He sat in front of me and put his arm out nodding his head for me to come to him.

The highlights in his hair was gone and he looked like a real Italian mobster. He looked so hot and really cute when he picked a flower and handed it to me. I smiled at him and he pulled me to him. I leaned against him as he put his arms around me. "How did you find me?" I said as we watched the sun go down.

"Your mom told me you might be here in Sheffield and Sav said you might be here or at the cemetery. So I decided to try here first."

"I was going to kiss you but when dat gay said something I just snapped."