Let me in. (Robert Downey Jr Fanfic) Complete

45. Eulogy

Tadaa! I'm so incredible, terribly, super sorry you guys for waiting so long to update. I've had a lot going on this past month. I won't bore you with the details. Just know that I haven't forgotten about you and here's the proof! I really hope you'll love this chapter coz it means a lot to me, not just on a creative level but a personal as well, of losing someone dear to you. 

You may find it a quick leap between chapter 44 and this one but like I mentioned before, the final editing of this story will contain more chapters, details, information and I'm still working on that version.

Hope you enjoy and my sincere apologies once again! Bye babes! xxx

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"Not a single star in the heavens above, shone so bright like she did throughout her life. Her memory will continue to shine ever so bright in the hearts who hold her tremendously dear. She would smile through hurricanes of pain and sorrow, to stay strong for the ones she loved. She's been through ups and downs her entire life but came out ever so stronger every single time. She refused to give up and she never did. Giving up was something unknown for her. Till the age of twenty she's been through events that would take a normal person a life time to go through or even more. Yet till her very last day she stood up straight with both feet steady on the ground and her chin up high. She's the pure definition of incredible.

Sophie Johnson was a headstrong child. She wouldn't take no for an answer if she was determined for something to go her way but she was also so innocent. Her heart was strong but oh so soft. She wouldn't stop worrying about a loved one if she wasn't convinced that this person was truly ok. She wouldn't stop at nothing to make this person smile a genuine smile.

Sophie was honest, pure, kind and selfless. I remember when we were children, she was ten and I was fourteen. I was asked out on my first date but I had no idea what to wear. I came out of my bedroom with a rosewood colored tent dress and yellow converse underneath. I tried to put my hair in a sophisticated bun but it turned out rather wildly, like I had just woken up. Basically, I looked horrible. I walked into Sophie's room to ask her opinion. I still remember her first reaction when she saw me. She faked that she had to throw up at the sight of me. That is how honest she was. She pulled me back towards my room and started an assault in my closet. She told me to close my eyes as she dressed me up and worked her magic on me. After a while she told me to open my eyes. I was staring at myself in front of a full sized mirror. Never in my life had I felt so beautiful before. I felt like a princess. I was wearing a blue floral sundress and she let my hair down, showing my natural wavy hair. It was the first time that I was wearing makeup. She was able to bring my bright blue eyes out. They were visible like the clearest, blue summer sky. I truly felt beautiful at that moment and it was all thanks to Sophie. My wonderful little sister.

How I wish to be holding you right now. To look into your beautiful emerald green eyes that always seem to worship me for reasons I do not understand because Sophie, you were the strongest person I've ever known in my entire life. I might not have been there with you when you took your first steps or when you spoke your first words but I couldn't be more grateful to have had you in my life. I just wish I could've had you longer than I did. I wanted to see you grow up and be there with you every single step of the way. I wanted to teach you how to drive a car and teach you how to cook. I wanted to care for your beautiful children in the future and travel the world like we always talked about when you snuck into my room late at night when a thunderstorm was scaring you. There are countless of things that I wanted to do with you, create more precious memories that I would've treasured deeply forever and longer.

It pains me to know that I'll never have those opportunities with you. It pains me so much to know that I'll never be able to hold your petit body against mine ever again. I'll never hear you infectious laugh and I already long for that sound so desperately. I want to feel your soft, little hands wiping away the tears rolling down my cheeks right now and feel your lips planting a reassuring kiss on my forehead. I want to hear your beautiful, soothing voice while you're singing to me when I wake up from a bad dream, trying to sooth me back to sleep while caressing my hair.