Let me in. (Robert Downey Jr Fanfic) Complete

9. My mind betrays me

I have trouble sleeping yet again. I just keep rolling around thinking about tomorrow. The nerves are really getting to me, since the second testing will be held tomorrow and because I'll have to see HIM again. Seriously, what's his deal?

Couple days ago we went out for lunch and I have to admit, I had a lot of fun. We really hit it off in the diner and I felt like I was just talking to a normal, nice and ordinary person. I felt really at ease with him when we were like that but then he always does this 'thing', like coming up really close to me and making me think that he's about to kiss me or something and then he always says something that I eventually trace back to sex!

Like when he said that I turned him on and that he is like a caged beast. I hated him for doing that! But I loved what it did to my body..

My heart beat would always accelerate and I'd start to go weak on my knees and wanted to steady myself by placing my hands on his broad and hard chest. I loved the chills running up my spine and the sudden heat wave that would come over me, wanting to rip off all of my clothes. To top it all off, I just wanted to jump the man.

"Ugh.. stop thinking!!" I yelled at myself.

"Why can't I get him out of my head!" I said with my teeth grinned.

This man is even messing with my head when he's not around and the worst part is that, he probably knows it too. Maybe that's his little scheme! He wants to turn me into one of his fangirls who hangs his poster all over the walls of the bedroom and stuff!

"Ain't gonna happen mister..."

I've set my mind straight. He can come at me whenever he wants but I won't, I will not give in!

"I can do this..". Even though he is so sexy, talented and charmi-...

"Damnit! There I go and do it again!"

Ok, calm down.. all I have to do is act like I don't care about anything he'll say. Sounds easy enough.. and with that thought, I finally fell asleep.

I reached out my hand to grab my phone and turned off the alarm. It's 7:30 AM. I surprisingly slept really well. I stood up stretching and took a shower and like usual made my coffee. I have to be at work at 9. It's feels weird, not going to work to work but to audition. I could feel the nerves slowly getting to me and took a deep breath, calming myself down. Everything will be alright and even if it didn't, I'll just go back to my normal life and normal work. It will be like nothing ever changed. I'm not even sure if I wanted it to change. Well, of course I want it to change, for the better but I'm not sure if this is it.

I got dressed and put on some casual make-up. I still have 30 minutes before I have to leave. I sat down on my couch but this time turning the TV on. "I'm not going to fall asleep this time."

After 5 minutes of watching Animal Planet someone knocked on my door. Who could that be? "Don't tell me...".

I got up and slowly walked to my front door and then heard his voice.

"No need to get your baseball bat. It's just me." He said through the door. I smiled at his joke, happy that he couldn't see it.

I opened the door and there he was, looking really good, smiling at me.

"Hey Robert, what are you doing here? Shouldn't you be at Rich Pictures with Mr Richards and everyone else?"

"Yeaah.. but I thought I'd come pick you up, since you have to be there as well." He winked.

"You really need to start calling me if you plan on coming over." I sighed.

He chuckled deviously. "Don't you remember?"

"Remember what?"

"You said if I'd ever surprise you like this again that you'd punish me for it." He took a step closer and was now inside my apartment.

I spread my eyes. Damnit! Why did I say that!

I took a step back and he closed the door behind him.

"What person in their right mind would want to be punished willingly?" Raising an eyebrow and crossing my arms.

He took another step closer to me. I don't think so mister and took a step back but he just kept on walking towards me until I hit the wall behind me. He was dangerously close now.

He brought his head next to my ear. I could slightly feel his stubble on my cheek and felt really hot again.

"Maybe I wouldn't mind being punished... by you." He said in a deep, vibrato voice.

Damn him! Why is he always doing this?! I should confront him about this. This needs to stop but I felt too light headed right now to gather up the nerves.

No... I realized. That's just an excuse I tell myself. I do like it. I do like him teasing me like this. I like what effect my body has when he's standing so close to me. I just didn't want to believe it. I feel so lost right now. What do I do? What do I really want? What does HE want?

I sighed and looked up at him in his eyes.

"What are you doing Robert?" I said in a serious tone.

He clearly wasn't expecting this kind of response. He looked taken aback by my seriousness but didn't move away.

"What do you mean?" He tried to make light out of it with a cheesy smile.

I walked away from him. "This?! You just coming over without notice. Making these.. these sexual accusations. Coming up so close to me! What are you trying to achieve here Robert, because you're messing up my mind!" I started to get really angry. I didn't wanted to be so straight forward but it just came rambling out of me.

He looked serious for a moment. He knew that he has gotten himself in trouble with me. I saw him thinking, making up his mind. He went to sit on my couch and looked straight forward. He then took a deep breath and sighed as he was about to start talking.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know that you'd thought that way about my actions. I-I've clearly been going the wrong way about this." He closed his eyes for a second and then looked at me. "I-I just wanted to get to know you better. To be honest here.. I find you.. fascinating a-and I kind of felt lost around you. Not knowing what to say or do." He looked down to the ground. "I sincerely apologize for my actions and making you feel uncomfortable around me. That's the last thing I wanted to do." He then looked me in the eyes again.

He was so sincere and honest. I couldn't be mad at him for that. That's actually really nice. Now I feel the need to apologize to him. I warmly smiled at him and went to sit next to him on the couch facing him.

"I'm sorry too Robert. I shouldn't have snapped at you like that. I'd like to get to know you too, if you still want the same?."

His sad eyes turned happy and I could see the caramel/golden sparkled in them again. He smiled broadly. "Of course I do!" I could see that he wasn't planning to say that so enthusiastically as he started to shrug and tried to look a bit more serious.

I giggled. "Good!" Winking at him. "We should probably be going now if I don't want to be late."

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So what do you guys think so far? Sorry if you'd expected the 2 to hit it off immediately but I'm trying to build up the sexual tension!

I have to be patient about this as well coz I'd love nothing more for the 2 to finally take a bigger step towards each other but I'm trying to make it as intriguing as possible. Thanks for sticking with me though! Didn't expect to have over 100 views! :D