Discovering Fate

6 | Sapphire

6 | Sapphire

"I don't understand why you're so upset, none of what you said could be controlled by you," my mother told me as she removed a pan of home made lasagna from the oven.

Sitting at a table overlooking the kitchen I was explaining to her briefly what was happening with the case.

Bail had been denied by the judge and our desire to have all the charges dismissed by the prosecution team had been a failure.

It felt like we were making no progress.

I walked over and grabbed a few glass plates from the cabinet, "It's just frustrating. This whole case is getting to me."

My father would know exactly what to say and how to comfort me during something like this, maybe I'd take a trip to NYC to see him when I got a chance.

I had tried to reach him by phone this evening but got no answer. I'd sent him a follow-up text message which I'm sure he would get to as soon as he could.

My mom placed a slice of lasagna onto both of our plates, "It's a very big case, but you will figure something out. You're very bright and I know when you have your mind set on something you see it through, it'll be fine."

Of course I knew I'd be fine, I was just lacking confidence in the moment.

We sat at the kitchen table and continued chatting while finishing up our lasagna.

I'd grabbed a can of sprite out of my fridge to go with my meal as my mom went for a bottle of wine.

That was another not so great thing about her, her drinking habit.

She wasn't an alcoholic, but she was closer than she realized to becoming one.

Sitting watching her drink wasn't something I was interested in so I cleared the table and silently walked off to my room.

A nice bubble bath would be wonderful right now.

As I walked into my room I locked the door behind me and tossed my worn clothes across the room into a nearby laundry basket before walking into the master bathroom.

After selecting some soothing meditation music to play out over my speaker I placed my phone on the counter and began to run my bath water.

Now more than anything I just needed to relax.

Matter fact, I need to relax and get laid.

The last time I had sex had been 6 months ago in a car parking garage with a really hot redhead.

It had been fun and sexy in the moment but it was just a one night stand. We had gotten our orgasms from one another and walked into different directions afterwards, nothing more.

Getting laid was always great but I think I was actually at a point of wanting to settle down, something more than just physical contact.

However being realistic I know it wouldn't be fair to anyone to try to date them while having such a high demand case I was working on.

Every time I turned around I was being called or pulled away regarding our client. Trying to build a relationship in the midst of all that wouldn't work.