one night stand | jjk

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Play 'Sharpest Tool'
By ; Sabrina Carpenter

You try hard not to let harsh words out of your tongue, but can you help yourself? Jungkook here, stands in front of you with a scowl decorating his face as he glares at you while he hears you speak.

The frown lines on his face seem to deepen with each word that leaves your lips. Although his face shows his anger and growing frustration due to the acts you've done behind his back with intentions that he's unaware of, inside his heart he knows today is the day

that he faces the truth that he's always buried inside of him. the truth that he does not want to hear because it would leave the both of yours' fragile glass heart into a million pieces. And you've already taken the first step by saying;

"Jungkook, you've never done anything for our baby before! You're uninterested, unbothered and don't love our child like I do! You don't act like a fucking father—how do you expect me to ask you or bring you along for shopping for this kid?"

every word that you said, made sense and was correct. But Jungkook didn't want you to say the right thing because he was fully aware that this would sting him in every inch of his heart and soul, and it wouldn't be too good for him. Yes, he's uninterested and unbothered and it is not your fault that you don't know his side of the story that he hides from the world.

He does it intentionally but how could he say everything to you? You're so hopeful, you're a woman filled with love and courage, leaving the world behind and even your parents in the limelight, you so bravely took up this responsibility of the child and now you've just formed yourself to become the ideal mother that he wants for his children but why can't he accept this?

You're accusing him of not being a father and he knows it, damn well but he can't admit it, as it would only lead to his breakdown, which he can't afford. He's not going to put himself in that position again, feel like shit even though he's fully aware that he is one, saying it out is only going to make his mind believe it,

and what good would it do when his heart opens up and takes the lead. So he denies it. "That's not the problem here-" 'Oh you damn well know that this is the problem, Jeon!' he thinks to himself. If he acted like a father, this day would never come.

The arguments won't rise like it has now, it would never if he could only be the loving and wanting dad for his child and the woman that he so madly likes. He avoids your eyes when you glare at him, if he looks into those sharp, painful spheres that usually hold a galaxy of hope and love for him, he won't be able to handle himself. But does he want you to look at him with hatred? No. Never.

But why is he arguing here when he knows he could rather speak and sort this, so instead he denies. "that is!!! You don't want our baby, you have no love for this little human that we created together, you can't stand her! You hate this child! You hate her!!"

There.

if what you said a few minutes ago about how he's an unbothered father stung him then the words you've now spoken, raw and true from deep within, have shattered it completely. The very words Jungkook fought so damn hard to keep from spilling from your lips, but now, you've said them.

and can he be mad? Definitely not. not when you're throwing them at him with tears flowing down your eyes and staining your beautiful pink dress that he was meant to tell you, how lovely it looked on you and made your hazel eyes shine. he hates himself for making you cry like this, for letting you feel this way.

you're in pain and he needs to feel it, he has to understand what's going on within you, that's the only way he'll speak what he has to. "why do you hate this.. this baby?" you whisper at him, sobbing hard as you try to calm yourself down. Jungkook bites down on the inside of his cheek, the metallic tang on his tongue a reminder of how hard he's trying to manage his inner pain physically.