one night stand | jjk

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Play : 'imperfect for you'
By; Ariana Grande

Your body is exposed, with nothing but black lingerie delicately covering your most intimate parts. you've spent barely 15 minutes by yourself in the warm water and purple lights surrounding the pool.

the sky is dark, the stars appear as they flicker as if they were blinking while watching down at you. the moon is so round, so white. reminds you of a certain someone. but you don't let those thoughts enter your peaceful state. strong arms wrap around your bare body and warm breath heaves at the crook of your neck. you've frozen even though the water was not close to the ice.

"let me hold you... please.." he whispers in your ear, his voice trembling as he gets closer to you. A frown decorates your face when you feel his palms wrapping themselves over your bump.

'that's not something he's ever done.' you think to yourself.

it's quiet.. hushed. the silence however isn't a comfortable one neither is it that muted. because inside your mind are a hundred thoughts, talking and asking you questions after his single move.

the creases of your forehead deepen when you feel his palm caress the sides of your waist as his breathing gets steady and normal. You're not relaxed at his touch because you're unaware of what's happening right now, but only until you feel a cold drop of dew touch your bare shoulder. "Jung-" "I know... I know."

he hums and removes himself from you as he turns you to face him. you look into his eyes noticing the redness of it and a well of tears brimming. the doeness of them have far gone and all you see is guilt and pain as he looks down at the water, no courage to look at you. his palms stay at your arms, and slowly they drop down and leave your body.

you wanna know why he's crying. he didn't seem to look this way when the argument took place, he looked okay with everything that happened then why is he crying right now, after two whole days? does he still feel like you're being too harsh on him? jungkook blinks a couple of times as he looks away and tries to remove the flowing tears from his cheeks.

he then turns to you and sees you look concerned for him, he feels relieved by it. it tells him that you still care. he takes your hands and holds them tight as he bites on his inner cheek. "I want to talk. not- not right now. maybe once when get inside, but I want to talk." he speaks and you nod before looking down and then away. you abruptly turn your head to the water and pull the palm up that you were holding.

"jungkook what happened to your hands?!" You gasp at the sight of his bruised knuckles, untreated and unbandaged. he doesn't look at his hands, instead, his eyes stay fixed on you, watching you look worried. "Jungkook?" you call his name again, trying to pull him from his thoughts.

His gaze drops to where your hand holds his. "Uh- it's nothing. Don't worry about it-" "Just look at them... it must hurt," you whisper, brushing your thumb gently over his bruised, purple knuckles, concern etching across your face. He scoffs, running his tongue over his bottom lip. "That's nothing compared to the pain I caused you," he mutters quietly, his words making you tense. You nod, slowly pulling your hand away from his as you turn, your back facing him.

The tension between you feels heavy so you want to look away for a moment. jungkook lets his hand run through his hair, wetting it as he grows closer to you and back hugs you again. "I know you want some space but...I want to be close to you."

he whispers, his nose rubbing into your hair as he takes in the scent of your rose shampoo that he loves. You let him be because, truthfully, you miss him too. You miss his warmth, and deep down, you want this as much as he does. You've zoned out, lost in your thoughts about everything, while he's right here, wanting to talk, and yet you're pushing him away.