TIME STAMP: TWS YEARS, 1945
Well, you look like yourself
But you're somebody else
Only it ain't on the surface
Well, you talk like yourself
No, I hear someone else though
Now you're making me nervous
When Bucky woke up, he didn't feel anything – no pain, no anger, nothing; he didn't feel like himself, especially because he had no idea who he was, where he was, or how he got there.
His eyes wandered around as he tried to adjust them to all the bright lights surrounding him. Feeling disoriented, he tried to stand up and reach something, but his body couldn't move and there was questionable pressure on his left arm.
"привет солдат" a man announced while Bucky was sitting on a reclined chair, strapped against its sides.
"I don't ... I don't know what that means." He said confused.
"It means hello soldier. My name is Doctor Armin Zola. Do you know where you are?"
"I don't – who are you?"
"The better question should be, do you know who you are?"
"Of course, I know who I am." Bucky said as if it was obvious – yet he couldn't say who he was so a bit of panic started to rush through his body.
"Interesting." Zola smiled and leaned back a bit. "How do you feel about your arm, soldier?"
Bucky's mind got even more confused until he faced his left arm, getting terrified by the lack of it. It wasn't completely gone but it was replaced with a metal prosthesis instead. His right hand was shaking and although he wanted to bring himself to touch the other arm, he couldn't.
"What have you done to me?" His voice sounded weak, but anger was building up inside of him. "Where the hell are we?"
"I saved you, soldier." Zola said and before he could continue, Bucky broke the straps and grabbed him by the throat, giving the first use to the metal arm.
"You need to fix this. Right now." He threatened but he never got to hear Zola's answer because suddenly, he was back in the chair, his whole body going soft.
"Wipe him out again and make sure this time he's more of a machine and less of a human." Zola coughed, trying to catch his breath.
"What do we do with him after?"
"Put him back on ice until I know how to fully control him." Zola dismissed the other man and looked at Bucky, who seemed to be peacefully asleep.
A few years later, Zola knew how to control The Winter Soldier at his mercy, so he demanded that Bucky get unfrozen and trained him mentally for a while. As a scientist, he knew for sure that it couldn't and wouldn't fail but as a man without any super strength inside of him, he was terrified that Bucky would fight back.
"Hello again, soldier." Zola said, smiling this time at Bucky.
Bucky frowned at first but then nodded his head at Zola; no questions asked. "Where's the fight?"
"Good." Zola stated and then continued. "Now we're getting somewhere."
He still didn't know who he was, but it didn't seem to matter. In the back of his mind, he wished that he could know who he was, where he was, or even if he had someone outside, but he didn't even know if there was any outside.
At that particular moment, all he knew was that he was a soldier who had to follow orders to not get killed or frozen again.
Even in his wildest imagination, he would never think he'd become the greatest assassin of all.
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ineffable memories / / bucky barnes
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