Forbidden

43 - three times the charm.

Trinity Sutton
San Diego, CA

"I don't know. Elias isn't dumb enough to knock up a bitch that he kept as a fuck buddy. Drunk or not, he knows better." Madison said while we walked through the baby clothes racks. I wasn't really in the mood to shop for baby clothes but she insisted and I needed to get out anyways because the only places I was going to was home and then work — still hiding this pregnancy by the way — and then back home.

"It's just the fact that he did it with her and me. And the fact that you did hit her raw is wrong while chasing after me,"

"Yeah but that's Elias. He fucks random bitches to make himself feel better and then it backfires in the long run. Amaya gets around. She's pretty and available and trust, he's not the only football player she's fucking with."

"I don't know. Maybe because I'm pregnant, it got emotions so high and makes me more sensitive." I answered with a chuckle. "Especially since it's a girl,"

"Could be." Madison gave me a sympathetic look as she flipped through a rack of tiny pink dresses. "Honestly, it makes sense why you're feeling everything so intensely right now. You're carrying a girl, and that kind of mess just hits different. It's like you're not just protecting yourself, you're protecting her too."

I shrugged and continued looking through the baby clothes. Everything was so....surreal still with this whole situation. We haven't thought of names, bought clothes, necessities, anything at all yet. But being in here is fucking crazy.

"Look at this. It's so adorable," Madison held up a pink onesie that said 'Get it from my daddy' on it with little cupcakes printed. "If she comes out looking like his ass. This is gonna be even cuter,"

I sucked my teeth with a smile, "Please, I don't think I could deal with two of them, let alone a girl version."

"She's gonna be so pretty. I'm so happy for you guys, for real." Madison told me making me smile but I could hear the bit of sorrow in her voice.

"Anything you wanna say?" I asked her giving her the floor. I know Elias told me her and Harrison can't have kids so us being pregnant means a lot
to them just as much as it means to us.

Madison hesitated, her eyes dropping to the tiny clothes in her hands. "It's nothing. I mean... I'm really happy for you, I swear. It's just—" She exhaled, her voice softening. "It's hard, you know? I love Harrison, but knowing we can't have this... it stings sometimes."

I reached over and squeezed her arm gently. "I get it. You don't have to hide how you feel around me."

She gave me a grateful smile. "It's not like I'm not excited for you. I am. So much. But sometimes it's like... I wonder why things happen the way they do."

I nodded slowly, understanding her unspoken pain. "Life's just weird like that. But if you ever need to talk about it, I'm here. You know that."

Madison gave a small smile. "Thanks. I'm good, though. Really. I just needed to say it out loud, I guess."

"You and Harrison are gonna have your happiness too. I know it," I assured her.

"I hope so." She smiled, though it was tinged with sadness. "But right now, this little girl of yours? She's already got so much love waiting for her."

Hearing that gave me a sense of peace I didn't know I needed. I knew she was already loved by Eli and me because no shit. That's our kid. But to know, everyone outside of us was anticipating her arrival is what makes it feel much better.