Today's morning events were still reeling through my mind. How could they have done something so horrific? I know Hydra is cruel, but to treat a child that way is despicable.
My little spider was crying heavy tears throughout the day, his heart broken at the way he was stomped down and treated. Thankfully no training occurred today because I was sent on a mission, so, other than experiments, he was left alone in his cell. I returned from the mission to see my child alone and curled up in the corner of the room, still sobbing.
"Am I an animal, dad? What am I, really? You say I'm a person but they say I'm a mutt. I don't understand. I hate it. I HATE it! I just- I just want..." my child sobbed, his voice cracking as he shrieked out his pain through his tears.
"You're my son, darling. I'm so sorry I couldn't protect you. I'm so sorry. I love you my Little Spider. You're my son."
I tried to comfort him, but what could I do about the mental anguish these guards are inflicting upon us. As horrified as I was about what had happened, I couldn't even do anything as that horrid guard Luka did those things. One of the guards held me down and I couldn't retaliate.
I felt disgusted and embarrassed. How could I sit here and allow my son to be tortured in such a way? I cannot allow this to go on for any longer.
I have to escape.
But in order to escape we need to make a plan. The problem is, how much can we do in our state? We're constantly being watched and our strength is weakened from constant abuse. I could try distracting the guards as we ran away. But I don't know anything about the layout of the base except for a general outline of the level I am currently being held on. Any other movements in and out of the base were done with my eyes blindfolded and an anesthetic injected in my neck.
I could try stealing the gun from some of the guards and shooting our way out. Maybe we could blast down a wall.
But what would we do from there? What happens if I get out and we're actually just in the middle of nowhere and we aren't strong enough to get somewhere? What happens if we do successfully get out but we can't make it safely to a civilized location and get ourselves safe and hidden?
Then what would we do? Hydra would find us again and take us back and punish us harshly for even daring to run away. They might even just shoot us if we become too much trouble.
The desire to break free was so strong, but the fear of running away also pinned me to my spot.
Years of conditioning and training made violent voices hiss in my head, scolding me for even thinking of running away.
Hydra is family.
Hydra is your master.
HAIL HYDRA.
Hydra is family.
Listen to orders.
My heart clenches with fear, but every time I glance over at the sweet, young child curled up on my side in the mattress, dried tears streaking his face, reminding me of the hours he spent in pain, I remember why I need to run away.
There's a reason.
He's the reason.
I shook my little spider awake, patting his shoulder with my metal arm very gently. His eyes barely peeled open, exhaustion clearly visible from the dark purple bags under his eyes.
"We're running away."
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FanfictionS-20 has only ever known one thing, Hydra, until one man came into his life and showed him that there was so much more. That man was his first friend. His older brother. But after one night, the two were ripped apart and S-20 cannot even remember hi...
