Willful Verses

The heart wants what it wants

"The heart wants what it wants"
'Then why is the heart stopped
When it wants something different
Why are those feelings shushed and dropped
Why is the world so ignorant.'

Back in the day when i was nine
And love came to me with no strings attached
I felt in my heart for a guy from the start
But i was told we were mismatched

When i turned ten, i felt the pain
Of an aching heart when i saw her
I told my friends but they just stared
"Oh my god, but you are a girl"

I shut my feelings deep in me
Afraid of being chatised by all
Cause i was told its just a phase
Uncertain i shut myself within four walls

"You can choose to change
You can't live like this
You are so strange
This is way amiss"

I shut my ears and retreated back
Blaming myself for who i am
Tired of people's comments on me
I felt like a glitch in nature's program

"Its just a phase"
'Is love a phase?'
And in my mind
This question raised

Then came one day when i reflected back
Why do people hate the ones who vary
I didn't sin, i was born this way
Are they afraid of us cause changes are scary

In Instances came back some sympathy
And slowly it merged into self acceptance
Cause they won't accept me if i myself don't
I decided to give myself a chance

I found others in this world like me
Who would understand my plight
Instead of hating myself anymore i,
Starting seeing myself in a different light

I started taking pride in who i am
Resolving the issues in my heart
Took down the walls i built for myself
I lived my life with a new start