Washed (A One Direction fanfiction)(Original)

Chapter 20- James

I watched Hannah bring this boy to the beach a day before I showed up around two weeks ago. She was laughing and they were having fun. They messed around with each other and were flirting. He splashed her, she splashed him back. The way they looked at each other made me want to barf. It took all my strength to stay hidden within the shadows. For once I saw Hannah smile again after all the pain that I had caused her. I was in definite denial that she had fallen in love again. I just couldn’t bring myself to the fact that I would never get my girl back, unless I told her the truth. I just wanted to grab her by her shoulders and kiss her as hard as I could. I missed the feeling of her hand in mine, that amazing feeling of the spark of electricity whenever we touched. We were meant for each other. I wasn't going to let another guy take the one thing in my life that was worth living for. I don't care what the cost is going to be. I want her. I need her. No. You promised. You promised your family that you couldn’t, but at what cost?? The girl you love??? I just needed to get it off my chest, but even I wasn’t aware of it yet. I didn’t know what I could do or how I could respond to her. I didn’t even know how she would respond to me, so I pretended to dislike her. Tell her that I was over her, but she couldn’t see the lies that were hidden in my eyes. The lies I told to keep her safe. I was disgusted with myself; a liar, cheater, and a horrible person. I wished things could go back to before all this happened, where Hannah and I could be an item again, before all the changes in my life. I was never a liar, I always told the truth, and when I tried to lie you could always tell when I was. I guess time has changed me. I have become something I wasn’t, a monster. I had to set things straight with Hannah; I guess that’s why I showed up at the beach to apologize. I told myself that I was going to tell her the truth. It was the least I could do. I hoped she would show up, but I was afraid she wouldn’t. I knew how she was feeling. Her best friend and more ‘cheated’ on her and broke her heart. He didn’t respond to her in over nine months, but she didn’t know the backstory. She didn’t know how much he gave up for her. She didn’t know how much pain and suffering he went through to get back to who he was. When I sat there and greeted her I didn’t expect her to react like she did, slap me and start crying. I thought that we could sit down and talk about it, but no. She had to tell me how I made her self harm and how I started the bullying at school. What kind of monster am I??  No. I couldn’t tell her. I can’t harm her again, and I couldn’t put her in danger, so I left. I never really left though. I stayed hidden in the attic for a while. It brought back all the good memories we made when we created it. The paint fight we had, the broken couch, and so many others. I can’t see her coming up here without thinking of me. It would be too hard on her. She even had our prom picture up here. After the memories were too much, even for me, I hid in the rooms next to her and came in occasionally to watch her. I guess you could call me creepy, but it was the best I had. I used to do this when we were dating too. I would hear her call out my name in her sleep and I would smile just as big as I am now, and feel proud. I was happy that I was still on her mind, whether it be good or bad. I have a better chance with her now that I saved her life, and that she has a secret too. I knew that at the right time I may be able to catch her attention and patch things up. I had just one obstacle though, the boy I saved.

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OK so i really need to know who you guys ship. i dont know who she'll end up with. i need at least seven comments on who you ship in order for the next chapter. Ok so theres:

-Hanry

-Jannah or Hames

-Hiam or Lannah

-share another choice or do you want Hannah to end up with someone else??

PLEASE check out my new story idea!!! i wrote it for class and i thought it went really good, all my classmates enjoyed it. i figured you might like it too. well anyways please comment.  Remember that i will ALWAYS reply to you when you inbox me and i try to respond to every comment that is meaningful. LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!! you are the best fans ever.

-Hannah the MERLEFAICORN  (mermaid, leprechaun, fairy, unicorn. My new nickname at school. Idek.)