Diary of a broken kid

Rehab

Just when i thought things couldn't get any worse , my addiction ti Xanax took over  completely. I started taking heavily-morning, evening, every day . I couldn't function without it . Then , one day  that my first love had moved on- she had a new boyfriend. That was it for me. I hit the rock bottom.
I spiralled. I took more pills than usual , hoping to numb the pain . But i went too far. I blacked out  after taking one too many , overdosing right there in my bed .  My sister  found me , unconscious , hardly breathing. In panic she called an ambulance.
The next thing i remember is waking up in a hospital, my family surrounding me, all of them worried- except for my dad , he wasn't there . My uncle , though, had come. He's an older , eccentric man who i rarely see . My dad , as usual , was too busy working to care.
To this day, i still don't know how i survived . But that near death experience woke me up . I decided i needed to get clean , so i went to rehab. It was hell . The place was filthy with people who seemed lost and broken . I didn't talk to anyone , terrified that they might take advantage of me .
There were heroin addicts , cocaine users , people deep in their own struggle . It scared me, yet at the same time , i knew i had to stay .
The food was disgusting, mostly traditional dishes that i could barely eat .  At night i couldn't sleep well . All i could hear were the screams of people battling their addiction. That's when i made up my mind . I wanted to be done with drugs for sure.
When rehab was over , i came home . My mom was proud of me , that meant the world to me . As for my dad?  He didn't show any emotion as usual . But something surprising happened , my sister welcomed me back .  Our relationship , which had been destroyed for long, seemed to be healing .  It felt like  our relationship had a second chance.
At that blazing moment, when i stepped  out of the dark hole , into a new chapter of my life , was the happiest i have been ever. I had  finally become someone different, someone better.