Die with a smile

Epilogue

Hanni

Have you ever heard of Broken Heart Syndrome?

If you haven't, well it's somewhat dying by being heart broken after loosing someone so special and dear to you. It's usually emotional and not much physical.

It's a very rare case of actually dying of a broken heart, but the chances were never zero. It's a small margin, but when life decides to finally treat you with what you deserved all along. Anything can happen.

It's been a month, and everything for me has gone downhill. Broken Heart Syndrome is very much real, and usually the heart failure should pass but that wasn't my case. And it made me happy.

It only worsened mine, apparently, me and Minji had around the same time left. And I didn't even know until I had tried to end my life right after Minji passed away. Loosing a part of me.

Minji must be waiting for me. Maybe even a little disappointed that I tried to see her again so early.

Have you heard of swans? They were one of Minji's favorite animals. You know why? Because they grief like we do, and they experience heart break in such a soul crushing manner. But Minji loved them because they lived with one sole partner for their whole lives. Such a beautiful creature. Such a beautiful story.

And Minji always said that they reminded her of us. And now I see why. Our story was going to be as beautiful and painful as theirs.

I laid above her grave, looking at the sun as it went down. Minji was watching me for sure and the thought made me smile a little more. The most beautiful sunsets were definitely Minji. I knew it. Why? Well because she was the most prettiest girl.

"We'll finally be together." I said softly, the wind around me blew slightly stronger, it almost felt like a response. Tears filled my eyes as my brain flooded with memories of Minji and I. We were so happy, so alive. But now? Two souls that were going to reunite once more.

She was definitely a once in a life time opportunity, she was beautiful, sweet like candy, a good soul. Minji was just amazing and everything put in one single body. But done so unfairly, not being able to live the life she deserved.

I had to admit, I was scared. My heart beat was slowing down, even though I accepted dying since the start, no one really ever is ready. And now I feel everything that Minji felt that day. I could feel the fear she felt, and god, punish me for ever being ignorant.

There was regret about things I could've done different, at times I wished I never pressured Minji into agreeing on doing some stuff. But I don't really regret doing them. As they were the happiest moments of our lives. The core memories of her.

Even though they were to only serve as memories that would fly with the wind.

I closed my eyes, letting the tears fall. Trying to ignore the fact that my family will be arriving any time soon. But by the time they get to me, I know I'll be at my last moments and nothing could be done to stop the process of life. And I made sure to have my body be buried next to hers. Together for all eternity.

I could feel my body growing weaker as the seconds went by, my breathing was becoming irregular. I was scared, terrified. But my happiness was found with the thought of seeing Minji again.

I cried, sobbed. Tried to let go of my fear and just let myself go, I had no reason to be here anymore. I lived a good life, for what it had lasted. But it was the best that anyone could ask for. I'll miss everything it had to offer me, I'll miss my parents, my family, the feeling of nature, and especially waking up to a new day.

The ground beneath started to feel like nothing as my body seemed to be shutting down. My body barely being able to move. My breathing got slower as well as my heartbeat.

They say death is peaceful, but what about the excruciating fear I felt?

I opened my eyes for what seemed to be the last time ever, my eyes roamed around the beautiful scenery. I'll definitely miss seeing the sunsets that Minji loved so much. I'll miss seeing her. 

"I'm coming, my love." I barely managed to say as it was getting difficult to swallow my own saliva. Everything around me started to become faint, even the scream of my name felt like a whisper, but the familiar voice tore my soul for one last time.

Oh, dear mother. I'm truly sorry. Forgive me for leaving you too soon.

But we'll meet again, I'm sure.

I barely felt the warm arms that wrapped around me as I slowly started to slip into unconsciousness forever. The world around me was starting to shut off. My eyes closing barely being able to catch the glimpse of the figures surrounding me.

Do you know of those last thirty seconds before the brain dies? It's supposed to be like a small recap of your life as the brain allows you to remember for one last time.

Well, here were my memories, flashing before me. All of them mostly being Minji and I, from the moment we met, to the moment I held her that night at the beach. All I could see was her, her, and her. My whole life has always been her and always will be.

She was my heaven, and I was hers. And I knew she was going to welcome me with her arms wide open. Becoming those two stars that she wished for us to be. Or rather three.

Fear I felt no more, this is what I've always wanted. To be with Minji again.

My Minji, the woman that is my soulmate. The only love of my life, my whole world. And that last thought gave me a sense of warmth and comfort as my body slowly became less mine.

Knowing that I'll be with Minji and my little angel that I lost in the battle of trying to get to Minji sooner.

And with my last act of strength.

I smiled.

I died with a smile.

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I cried. Wtf.

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