Here we go, the final time.
When I try to leave this mess of mine.
It's going to take all I got not to fall apart
From the hurt in my soul and heart.
I'm already drowning in tears
I know this heartache will linger for years
I'm going crazy because I already miss you.
Testing of my strength to pull me through.
We both know that the truth has won
All the stuff you deny you've done
I had plans of building a life with you
For a moment I believed my dreams had come true
Now shattered before me is our broken plan
Reality is one's perception of how they understand
Integrity is balance in our mind and will
What we do when Noones watching is the deal
If one can not be honest and open
They may as well be swallowed by the ocean and
swept far out, deep into the sea
they know nothing of peace and harmony
Following close behind my faith and mind
Knowing Wisdom comes only with age and time
Being honest would be wise..
Realizing "US", how we're based on lies
I don't know the complete you and you don't know all of me.
I Can't live life based on a fantasy
or wait for your apiphany.
You said "wait"to give you a chance
And you would never hurt me under any circumstance
I'm trying to decide if it's me that's wrong
Or you and your secrets you kept so long?
I expected loyalty from you
I'm kicking myself because I always knew
You were to good to be true.
I never missed anyone like I am right now
I hope I can numb my pain somehow.]
There is no reason to point blame
You too were a player in this game.
I want to end "US" with all the love I had to give.
I'm surrendering with mercy for a new way to live.
I hope you don't hurt to deep to grow
Your a good man i just want you to know
But you won't change if I stay
And I won't let pain get in my way.
Your the only one like your kind
And took all my life for me to find
I finally understand why we can't be friends
Two heartaches that will never mend
Some friendly advice for you to take
Is to learn from this heartache
Admit to yourself your mistake
I have something more to say
I hope your better than games you play
kept us from being sealed tight
Maybe I loved you more and thats alright³
I'm the one who wanted to much
I just got addicted to your magic touch
This is the part where things get tough
It was hard to accept Ill never be enough.
I was ok with that at first
Then out come the lies you rehearse
Deep down under your scar,
I accepted you for who you are.
Deep down under all that cover
Is the man of my dreams, MY LIFE, MY LOVER,
All I wanted was to love you
Even the secrets I know are true
I fell I love with that part of you to
I thought one Day you would understand
I would wait and meanwhile hold your hand
But that's to much of a demand
I imagines that I would die with you
The thought of a wedding dress and a suit and tie too.
And a million vows becauseI found my true love
Now a breakup and a soul that's fucked up.
But you will never know neither will I
There is No one to answer my question why
I have to leave you alone to go on
Why are my feelings so fucking strong
And when will they be gone?
