Field of Emotions

Chapter 18

Pagdating namin sa Pilipinas, nagka-hiwahiwalay na kaming apat. Si Gabrienne ay sinundo ni Tita Lavinia, sina Tita Alvina ay sinamahan sina Deia at Arianna pauwi at kasama nila si Kuya Castiel at Kuya Arlo. Ako naman ay kasama si Tito Marcus at Kuya Callum.

The whole ride was so nerve-racking. Wala akong alam kung ano ang dadatnan ko sa bahay. My heart was pounding so fast, parang may kung anong nakabara sa lalamunan ko at medyo nahihirapan akong huminga at kasabay non ay ang panginginig ng kamay ko sa hindi malamang dahilan.

Maybe I was scared? Or just coward because I was back in reality.

I stared at our house as I waited for Kuya Callum and Tito Marcus. It looks so peaceful outside yet so chaotic inside. Our house fooled a lot of people already and maybe it's the karma who's slowly punishing it.

Pagpasok pa lang ng bahay, pakiramdam ko agad na may mali. Pagbaba namin ng kotse at pagbukas ni Tito Marcus ng pinto, isang tumalsik na bubog naman ng baso ang tumama naman sa braso ko.

After that, I heard loud shatters of glass hitting the wall.

"Oh shoot! Ysabelle, are you okay? "Kuya Callum exclaimed as he put his handkerchief on mine.

"Come on, Yasmin. Don't act innocent! Don't act like you love that child the entire time she exists!" Papa shouted, making me breathe more harder. Parang may bumara bigla sa lalamunan ko kaya hindi ako makahinga.

"No!" Mama cried, making Tito Marcus rush inside. "You never knew the trauma I felt every time I saw Aellanna! YOU NEVER KNEW MY PAIN WHEN YOUR FATHER TRIED TO RAPED ME BUT YOU DID NOT DO ANYTHING!" her voice broke.

"I tried loving Aellanna the same way I love Liam and Amelia but there's something that's stopping me from doing it!" she shouted as Tito tried to stop them from fighting.

Magulo ang lahat. Hindi ko alam kung paano kumilos sa ganitong sitwasyon dahil madalas ay tinatakbuhan ko lang ito. Kuya Callum helped Tito Marcus to stop them by holding Papa back and I stood there, tears streaming with sorrow. All of the sudden, my sobbing began to become loud as my body began to numb.

Nagpupumiglas si Mama sa pagkakahawak ni Tito Marcus. "Stop holding me back!" She looked at Papa with the coldest stare she ever gazed at someone. "Sa tuwing nakikita ko si Aellanna, naaalala ko ang kababuyan ng magaling mong ama! Mabuti lang na tapos na ang divorce paper!" she said making me feel something pinch my heart.

Nanginginig na dinuro ni Mama si Papa habang pulang pula ang mata sa luha. Ngayon ko na lang din napansin ang mga pasa niya sa braso, gilid ng labi pati na sa binti. "Hinding-hindi kita mapapatawad, Aldrin...kahit anong gawin mo at ng ama mo, hinding-hindi ko kayo mapapatawad sa kababuyan ninyo sa akin!" sabi niya.

Hindi sila tumitigil kahit anong awat nina Papa at Kuya. They are fighting over me. Kahit kailan lagi na lang ako ang problema. Pero hindi ko na matatakasan 'to ngayon.

Dahan-dahan akong lumapit sa kanila. "Ma, Pa, tama na...please." I said but my voice broke.

Instead of stopping, her eyes suddenly changed. I don't know what happened but all I could feel was her hands slapping me. It was heavy. Her acts towards me just made my body more numb. My face turned the other side because of the impact.

"Ma!"

"Ysabelle!" Kuya Callum said as let go of Papa to help me.

But it wasn't what matters. It's the other voice. Just then, Kuya Liam came out of nowhere and at his back was Sian, looking so worried. Kuya Liam wasn't what Mama and Papa expected him to be when he left. The Amaris Inavarez in front of us looks so sophisticated with his formal outfit and neat hair.