Penelope's story

Just really Tired

This story may be triggering for self harm or that kind of stuff. Please don't read if you get triggered easy. <3
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It has been a week and no one is talking to me.
Austin hasn't been answering my calls and my brother is busy.
I have no idea what my dad does right now but he isn't here.
We had money on the bank so I could pay mums funeral that is tomorrow.
I have send out invitations to everyone who my mum knows and who I know.
I even invited Damond.
He was a big part of my life before and he became a close friend with my mum.
Alex and Nick won't be there.
I haven't heard from the rest if they will come.
I have tried to walk into mum and dads room to clean up her stuff but I can't. Every time I place my hand on the door I crack up and cries.
I really miss her. Right know I have no one to talk to. I don't even know if Austin will ever contact me. I'm even starting to worry if my dad won't be at the funeral.

The only thing I have done these days is watching The lion king and skip school. I can't go to school. But I'm doing something really bad that I haven't done in years. I'm starting to throw my food up.
I'm so sad. I can't even keep it inside my body.
Once upon a time I was this self harming bulimic girl and I promised my self that I will never go to that place ever again but I am there again.
My self harming fights is happening every night.
I know it's bad but it makes me feel better for like a minute after I have done it but then I feel even worse.
My phone hasn't even been texted to or called to.
I picked up my phone to check my Tumblr.
* knocks on the door "
I got up and wrapped my sheet around my little body and walked to the door.
I opened it And Damond was standing there with flowers in his hand.
" Hello " he said and smiled.
" Hi "
Really? Why did he come? I haven't showered for like 5 days.
" can I come in? "
I stepped aside so he could go through. He had this really good perfume on.
" make yourself at home while I go and take a shower "
He just nodes and watches the lion king on TV.

I have been in the shower for like 30 minutes and the only thing I have done is crying.
I was sitting on the shower floor and cried while the water was falling down on my face.

____Damond's POV ____
She has been in the shower for like an hour. She only showers for like 10 minutes because she hates to shower.
I got up from the couch and walked upstairs to her bathroom.
I leaned closer to the door and heard a little crying noise and weather. Shit!
I smashed the door open and saw her sitting on the floor with blood all over her wrist.
I looked around for a towel and I picked up the one from the floor.
I ran into the shower and sat down in front off her.
" Penelope I need you to stay with me "
I didn't turn the weather off because I wanted the water to clean the blood.
I cleaned a little with the towel and sat down next to her and took my arms around her shoulders.
" Come on Pen "
I hugged her hard and kissed her forehead.
" Damond? " She whispered and cried a ton.
" It's okey Pun, everything will be okey "
I helped her up and put a Towel around her body. She looked to pale and empty.
I haven't seen her like this for years. I ran into her room and picked up some pajamas.

I helped her get dressed and walked with her to her bedroom.
Messy as always.
I lied her down on her bed and tucked her in.

After I cleaned everything up and threw out all the stuff uses to do that shit.
I sat down on one of the chairs in her room and was on my phone.

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