You were everything...

Chapter 4.5

I want to destroy the game. I can't play that anymore and I don't want to.
The next days are getting slowly better, not better but there are different. I don't want to go to school but I need to. I have two exams next week and I really need to pass them.

Today I have art lesson and I think I start to like this lesson. It's peaceful and I dont need much to do. I just draw and can hear music and I love that.

Break time. I hate break time. I sit there alone and it always reminds me of my break with him. I hate it..I hate that I still think about him.

"Sorry"
I turn around and I see, I see him.
He stands there, smiling. I don't say anything because he wasn't talking to me.

"Can I sit with you?"
He asks. Does he ask me.
I nod and he sits down infront of me.

We just sit still and don't talk. He looks great. His hair and his eyes are beautiful. I love his eyes. He smiles and says: "I like your shirt"
I smile, my shirt? What do I wear. I wear my green tight shirt.
I smile and say: "Thank you"

He smiles and we eat in silence. I can't believe he's here. I can't believe he complimentet me. I can't believe it.
I can't believe that he's here.

I actually hate that shirt. I never wanted to wear it because it makes me uncomfortable but he makes it special. I don't know why. But he maked it special because he likes it. I shouldn't care about his opinions but they are making me butterflies.

Did I really just think that!? Butterflies? Really.. but yea I think it's true, he is giving me butterflies. I never fell in love with someone. I never did. And I never will.

"Did you heard what I said?"
He asks
I turn red and he laughs.
"I asked what's your name"

I blush and say: "My name is Shira"
He smiles and says: "I like that name... where does it come from?"

I think for a second and I answer:
"It's from Hebrew, it means something like singing. My mother liked singing when she was younger so she named me after her favourite think to do, something she loves"

He smiles and is silent.
"Did I say something wrong? Sorry I talk to much"
He shakes his head and laughs.

"You don't bother me and I like it when you talk. But sometimes there is this sparkle in your eyes and then I know you are deep into your mind. I like it"
He smiles and when I wouldn't sit here I would scream out loud. What did he just say!!
Oh my gosh. I can't believe it.

He smiles and looks into my eyes. I love his eyes did I say that?

"What's your name?" I ask
He smiles and says:

"My name is Caleb. It's nice to meet you Shira"