You were everything...

Chapter 8.5

I wake up in my body feels completely different. I don't know why but it feels different but in a good way. I make my bed and brush my teeth. Caleb didn't text me this morning but it doesn't bother me this much because I am still a bit nervous about this day. I mean what are we? Friends? No we are definitely no friends. More than that, so much more.

I walk to school but he isn't waiting there for me like every day. We're is he?
I walk to my first lesson alone. In first break I look forward to see him but he isn't here. I sit at my table and wait. But he isn't showing. He is not with his friends and not here. Maybe he overslept or something. Or he doesn't want to see me. Or he thinks I am a crazy person? Or he doesn't liked the evening yesterday? Or he doesn't like me at all?

"Sorry Cupcake that I am late"
I look up and there he is.
"Hi, no worries"
No kiss, no hug, no handshake, nothing. He just sits there and pretends like nothing happend.

"Umm are you free after school?"
He asks and I nod. "Yes, what do you want to do?"
I asks and he is silent. He don answer so I think he isn't sure what he wants to do.
"I think we need to talk"
He say and I sit there in completely silence. When a person tells you we need to talk, it's never a good sign.

And then he walks away. What if he regret last night, what if he thinks it was not a good idea. What if he doesn't like me anymore. What if I make him uncomfortable. What if...

The bell rings and the next two periods start.

After the two periods the next break begins and he doesn't show. I sit there alone with my head full of thoughts and he doesn't show. I don't know we're he is but he doesn't show. I have no idea what he's up to. And I am so nervous that I can't eat. My body shivers and I am nervous so nervous that I don't even want to tak to him. I don't want to know why he thinks we are not good for eachother. Or why he thinks I am a bad person.

School ends and I just want to go..I don't want to speak. I don't want anything. I just want to go home and go into my bed. I want to go back to my whole. I never wanted to say that but I want to go back. And I am scared.

"Shira stop avoiding me"
He screams from far away. I walk faster but he start to run. I am almost home. Just a little bit...
"Shira stop it"
He stands infront of me.

"Shira what's going on?"
He asks and I say: "You weren't there last break and in the first one you were late. And I didn't saw you all day. You didn't text me and you didn't even searched for me. Do you think I feel good after what happened last night? Do you think that gives me a good feeling? No it doesn't, what a suprise"

He nods and then he explains: "I overslept because I was tired. So I ran to school to talk to you once. Second break I couldn't come because I was send to the principal. And know I want to talk to you because I want to tell you that I think I love you."

And my heart stops beating.
"Wait... You think or you know?"
I ask and he says: "I don't know you enough, I want to get to know you better. But the Shira that I know, now is the person I am already in love with"