Tabboo

Epilogue. Taboo

Taboo

"What are you thinking Phi". Zee approached Mew and backhug his naked back. It was late when they came back from the reception. Dinner, drinks, dance. He was feeling nostalgic. His baby grown up to the most handsome and beautiful boy ever. He achieved everything he ever wished for. Mew was happy. His Phi and Gulf. They were his backbone. They stood by him whenever he felt alone. His friends Thanitt and Tee. They were his support system. Never judged him. Never disgusted him.

And Zee. His Nong. His baby brother. Turned his love.  The memory was still alive in his mind. He could never imagine he would fall in love with his own blood related. But here he was. After almost two decades. 

They could still not flaunt in the public. But now, they didnt care. Yes there was a time when Zee was frustrated. He was hurting when he couldnt announce Mew as his boyfriend. Because he would never tarnish their family. He cried in his arms, wailed like a little child. But then.. It all settled. It doesnt matter anymore. In their home, their room they could be whoever they wanted to be. Yes they would take care not to be so intimate in front of their family and friends, but they were together in all thick and thin. 

Mew was everything Zee could wish for, infact anyone could wish for. Even if he didnt announce, he always said I AM TAKEN if someone tried to approach him. There were huddles. Tears. But they were bound with love. 

And then there was another moment of fear. When Jagger told him that he knew about being adopted and MewZee being LoveBrothers. That night.. He spent the whole night in Zee's arms when Jagger left him to his room. He cried whole night thinking about the WHAT IFS. He was sweating cold and it was Zee who took care of him. To calm him. To soothe him. He chased his fears with his love, his support his kisses and hugs. 

Jagger. A part of his heart that wrapped him around his pinky. From the moment he held him in his arms, till today. And forever. He was his baby. His buddy. His pride. His bundle of happiness. He never thought being a Dad would be such an emotional ride. He never knew it. But it came handy. The moment he held him to his chest, was the moment it bestowed upon him. Like his second nature. 

"Phi". Zee softly kissed his back turning him around in his arms. "Thinking about Jagg"? He smiled.

"Not particularly Zee. Am thinking about the twenty years i spent being in love with you". Mew held his hand and sat on the couch near glass window. 

"It wouldnt be here if you wouldnt have accepted me Phi". Zee said on the memory.

"Yeah. I admit i was scared. A coward. Society, people, family, friends. I couldnt imagine the risk it would put us in. But you made me fall for you. Am sorry though, that i cant give you that ultimate pleasure and satisfaction of announcing our relationship, but Zee this is something i couldnt do". He kissed his fingers placing his hand on his chest.

"I know Phi. I understand. I know why you are saying it. I know its still bit difficult for Phi'Tae to accept us being in a relationship. I dont blame him though. I know its forbidden. But Phi. You were mine. You had to be mine. As much as i was yours. You were my other half. How couldnt you would have agreed and accepted me. I Love you Phi as it is supposed to be. Am okay that i cant swing you publically. But atleast behind this door, in these walls, i can have you however i want. And for that Thank you Phi". He said his heart out, settled in his lap, snuggled in his chest. His favorite spot. His perfect hideout.

"Zee". 

"Hmm Handsome"? 

"Will you let me make Love to you"? 

"You dont even need to ask Phi. Take me as you want. I am yours". Zee pulled back to ghost his lips..

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