L I F E (Lilia Calderu x Reader)

XIX

A/N: Me and bluebirdy2413 came up with this chapter idea a little while ago, so I thought I'd add it here before I get busy with my move.
Disclaimer: I know nothing about Tarot and learned this in a few hours. Sorry if interpretations are all wrong or confusing.
Also, using Lilia spread or whatever.

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"Come on." Liz begged, grabbing Lilia's hands in her own. "It would be kinda fun, don't you think?" She's been trying to get Lilia to do readings for everyone for the last hour. She's had quite a bit to drink as well.

"Okay, okay." Lilia giggled, standing to grab her tarot deck. "You guys can't be upset at what the cards say though." She warned, sitting herself back down beside me.

"It will say all good things, because I'm fucking awesome." Agatha stated, drinking the rest of her whiskey and pouring out some more; my sister following suit.

"Who am I reading for first?" She asked, looking around to everyone. No one was volunteering, probably all nervous for what would be said.

"I'll go first." I shrugged, placing my still full wine glass onto the coffee table. Lilia handed me the deck, instructing me to shuffle and cut. It felt weird, everyone's eyes on me; watching me closely. "It can't say anything worse than I've said to myself." I joked, trying to ease the tension just a bit.

Lilia lightly smacked my shoulder in response. "Okay, hand me your first card." I grabbed one from the pile and gave it to her. "Ah, The Empress." She smiled and looked up at me. "Creation of life. You're more of a maternal force, someone with motherly instincts. Someone who cares for others as if they're your own. They technically are, as you are the creator of life."

"Well that was a given." Rio rolled her eyes. "Next card!" She exclaimed impatiently, her eyes burning a hole in the side of my head.

"The star." Lilia stated as she flipped to card over in her hands. "Throughout your life, you've been lacking faith or optimism. You've felt nothing mattered and everything was pointless. What's missing or what was missing for you is personal growth and development."

"I've definitely developed." I believe this whole journey we've recently gone on has helped me to become more connected with myself, with my power; with life.

"That you have." Lilia smiled, squeezing my hand. "Okay, next." I handed her another card and she studied it for a moment. "More on your development, you were lacking control. You felt like nothing would ever go your way, like you couldn't do anything right." She stated, holding up the wheel of fortune reversed. "I'm sure you felt like you needed someone else to guide you. To tell you how to live your life, or use your abilities."

I looked to Rio for a moment, before turning back to Lilia. "You could say that." I always looked to my sister for permission to do this or that. I never lived life as my own person, never being in control.

"Happens to the best of us." Liz said sadly, offering a small smile in my direction.

Lilia looked at the next card, "The devil reversed." The devil sounded like it would be a bad card, but the look on her face made me feel otherwise. "Your path ahead is breaking free from the chains that hold you. Finally over coming the obstacle that kept you from unlocking your full potential." Me finally standing up to Rio, standing up for myself; for what's right.

"Oh, like how you turned into that 'angel' lookalike." Alice said, raising her hand as if we were in a classroom.

"Yes, like my 'life' form as we say." I smiled, remembering the moment it happened. My father's words, my mother's guidance.