Cherry Blossom Abyss

Chapter Twenty Three

I go to exit the house and see Naoki on the couch.

He seemed curious to where I was going.

I bet he wanted to ask,but was still keeping up the childish silent treatment.

I grin.

"I'm going to go to jun's house. We're gonna fuck."

He stares at me,glaring.

Then looks away.

Seriously?? That didn't get him to break??

I grunt and stomp up to him.

"You can't ignore me forever,Naoki! Talk to me!"

He casually stands up,going to exit and I grab his wrist.

"Naoki...please. I know you like me, too..."

He looks back at me, staring into my eyes,cheeks a bit pink before yanking away and heading upstairs.

For fucks sake this was driving me crazy!

I groan and head over to junyas,reaching the porch and glancing over at the boarding house.

Ittoki was in the back yard, practicing his martial arts.

Somehow...he looked different.

Graceful. The flowers surrounding him.

It was... breathtaking.

I think about our kiss yesterday,reaching up to feel my lips.

It made my heart start pounding.

I clench my bag strap.

The scent of him was still rubbed off on my clothing.

I was noticing all these things I didn't notice before.

How our family used to know eachother.

It felt .... different.

He was so smart. So cool. So mysterious.

I pull away from my trance.

I had to pretend to date him,for keiya's sake.

Not actually fall for him.

I was staying single.

....I think.

I get butterflies around chiaki...Naoki...sometimes ise.

But this was more intense.

It felt like it was calling out to me...

And I couldn't pull away from it,yet it was kinda.....fuzzy...

In an unfamiliar way.

I noticed akemi in the second story window.

Watching me as always.

My feelings for him were still there.

Just...numb.

I couldn't really explain it.

I groan in frustration,walking into jun's house and kicking my shoes off.

I push the thought into the back of my head,looking at my hand.

I don't really know if these feelings meant anything,or if I'm just clinging to whatever attention I get.

My mind is too scattered,and focused on the wrong thing.

I need to focus on getting my powers under control.

Stabilizing my mind,finding myself.

Buried deep within.