Divine.

Chapter 5: Why is He Leaving?

Who the fuck is this "Mory"?! Hell no! He's taking Rio from me... I don't even care how that sounds right now. I'm pissed-! Pissed? How that sounds... Wait... Am I getting a fucking crush on the guy I bully? Hell no. No. Bullshit. Fuck, maybe I am... It explains why I keep getting protective and soft around him... What is wrong with me? Why would I fall in love with someone who'll never love me back? He calls me a nag, right? I annoy him, so... Why..? Why would I hurt myself like that? He'll never even like me...

Damnit... I want Rio back... I walk over to the hallway I saw the Mory bitch take him... "I-" I pause as I overhear their conversation. His question. "Look, how about you go on a date with me so I can prove I love you?" Oh... My stomache hurts... And my heart... No way, I really am in love with that emo? My Emo has a nice ring to it- Ew, Selena, you're not even together... Shut the fuck up... God, Rio agreed to the date. I don't care, I... Yes, I do care. Fuck. Rio, I wanna talk to Rio... I grab Rio by the wrist.
"Enough talking... Rio, come back to me. Please." Rio looks at me a bit shocked but agrees quickly.

"Let's go to class." I put my hand in his. Rio blushes a bunch and is confused, but I needed to hold his hand. I just needed too. "I need to prove something to someone..." He sighs, probably out of relief because I'm a weirdo for just holding his hand, but the reason makes it less weird.
"Right. Proving something to someone. Alright." He sounds dissapointed, probably my delusion. He's literally about to go on a date with someone... He's just... Sensitive, he said so, so... Yeah. I believe him.

We reach our class and hold his hand just a bit longer when I open the door before letting go. Just long enough for the loud gossip-bitch clique to see. I look down and I swore I saw his hand about to reach for mine. I must be hallucinating... You know, if my delusion wasn't just that, I would date him... Oh, well. I sit down at my seat. His seat is to the left diagonal of my seat, I'm further back so I can see him. I look at the back of his head like a weirdo... I want him to look back at me... Please, Rio.

As if he read my mind, but maybe he had just sensed the holes I was staring into the back of his head, he looks to me with a light blush, why is he blushing? I mouth his name. He mouths my name. That's cute... I need to stop thinking things like that, that's weird. He's going on a date with someone else... 'Do you wanna hangout today? It's Friday.' I mouth to him, he blushes a little more and replies
'Sure, Selena. Why? You bully me.' Shit.
'I feel like it. I'll bully you while we hangout. I don't know.'
'Uhm- Okay.'

My classes felt like they went by quickly... All I can think about is him. I must be turning insane. Yeah... Insane... In love-? No. Insane. I'm insane. Anyway, both of us walk home from school, and we live a street or two away from each other, so I just walked with him. I might start waiting for him so that I can walk with him to school... Instead of letting him go to his house, I grab his arm. "My house. Let's go..."
"Okay..."

We're in my house, in my room. He's shivering... Oh, right, he's a weak warm-body. "Take my jacket..." I grab my red jacket with a skull print and hand it to him. The sleeves can be gloves and are striped red and black. It matches his asthetic well...
"Ah, thank you..." It looks good on him. I grab his arm gently. He snatches his arm away for the first time. "Selena... I'm scared. You're being too nice. I think... I think I'm gonna leave."
"But- You just got here-"
"Stop, Selena... Enough... I'm gonna go..." Fuck... Fuck!

I hear him leave and I feel myself start to cry. I pushed him too much and he left me. He left me, but... You know, if I think about it, you could say it's bittersweet because... He left wearing my hoodie.