Divine.

Chapter 14: I Couldn't Tell You, to be Honest

I- This is real. I'm having a sleepover with Selena... and we're CUDDLING. How am I not dead? She seems like she wants to do this as well. I can't sleep... She said she'd KISS MY NECK OR POKE ME... 2 things she KNOWS makes me groan and make some type of noise?! I'm loving this side of Selena, needless to say. This is perfection at its utter finest. The feeling of her holding me, me and her cuddling... This is so cool. I think I'm geeking... her hold on me is so possessive, I can't help but relish the feeling of it... I need to fall asleep... But, what if I dream about her?!

There are 4 main things about me: I'm emo, shy, a lover boy, aka a golden retriever, and I talk in my sleep. If I were to dream of her in my sleep, My dumbass would probably end up saying her name... NOT TO MENTION BOY HORMONES, FUCK. Even if I manage to not say her name, there's... If I dreamt of her, it would probably be a fucking wet dream, my hormones are off the hook... I wouldn't want to be... In her arms, with her arm wrapped around me, I would... Oh God, I shouldn't think about it... That... But, still... I don't think Selena would still want to be my friend if she knew how obsessed I was with her via my physical body not being able to handle her.

I'm gonna try to sleep. I settle further into the bed and relax into her embrace. I'll stop myself if I do, my dreams are almost all lucid... Yeah... I open my eyes as I feel Selena moving. She's kissing my neck again. "H-Hmh?" "Selena?" She hugs me tighter. "M-Mh... Hey..." She kisses up my neck to my jaw, then my cheek, then my lips... "A-Ahn... S-Selena~" She tugs at my shirt and I take it off.
"Thank you, cutie..." She kisses my collarbone, holding me by the waist.
"N-Ngh, ah..." I can only moan softly as she caresses my waist. God, I wish she'd kiss me on the lips again. As if she hears me, she kisses me hotly, rolling both of us, so instead of laying on our sides, she's above me.

I want her so bad... I wanna grab her waist... She grabs my hands and puts them around her waist. No... This is too good to be true. I think... I think this is a dream. Selena would confess before going this far, or letting me touch her... I should try to wake up... Fuck, but I'm hard... "Ah, fuck... Mm~!"
"Is there a problem~?" Selena sounds so aroused... Fuck, I would love to hear that if it were real... She kisses my chest more and I moan a bit more.
"Ah... Fuck, wake up..." She ignores my plead to myself and kisses down my chest to my abs... I'm so hard. Fuck. I need to get out of this dream so I can- I need to- Oh no. I'm gonna have to do it in Selena's bathroom...

I open my eyes to Selena shaking me, wide-eyed and nervous. "R-Rio! You were, uhm- Dr-Dreaming since last night and you were speaking a bit, mostly incoherent, but I heard you moan... A-And you said my name! W-What happened?! Did you..."
"I-I have to go shower." I shove her off of me quickly and grab my clothes from my bag before I go to the bathroom. Yes, I packed clothes. I close the door quickly and turn on the water. I wait for it to get warm and get in. I'm still, uhm- Fuck. Well, I have to... Good things the water's loud... "H-Hmh..! Mmh~!" I moan as I feel my hand move. "Ah, fuck..."

I wish Selena liked me back... Selena... Shit, I can't think about her right now... Or... But, she's so pretty and smart, I don't wanna stop thinking of her. I think she'd be a top... Oh, god, I'm going faster... "A-Ah~ Mmgh..." What if she were doing this to me? "Ah, oh god, that's hot..." Let me finish as quick as possible, I don't want her to worry... Oh, I'm so terrible for thinking of her like this... I can't bring myself to stop... Imagine if she had you under her, her riding you~? Fuck... Fuck... "Ngh~!" I think I'm gonna... "Ahhh~" ...I should do it again- No, I shouldn't... I'd imagine her again...

"R-Rio? You okay in there? I... I-"
"I'm okay, just hate being sweaty in the m-morning..."
"It's early, can we go back to sleep after? Or just cuddle again?"
"Uh... I-..."
"Please? I- I really wanted to cuddle a bit longer..." Really? Me? I think it should be fine, I didn't get like this from her cuddling me, or even kissing my neck...
"O-Okay... Yeah, we can snuggle..." I clean up and get out the shower, then I get dressed and head out the bathroom. She pulls me close as soon as I close the door. "S-Selena? Are you okay?"
"Yeah... I just wanna hug you... So..."
"Why do you wanna hug me?"
"B-Because you're really warm..."

"Your voice is so... Nice right now..."
"R-Really?" She asks in disbelief and embarrassment. "Th-Thank you... You're serious, right?"
"Mhm... I'm serious... I have a question... Why do you kiss my neck when we have sleepovers?" I hear her breath catch into a lump in her throat.
"Because... I feel closer to you when I do that..." I feel closer to her too, but that's because I feel like we aren't friends when she does that...
"Okay... Why would you wanna be closer to me?" Will she really answer?
"I... Just want to..." I won't push it, but... She's for sure lying... I've never heard of Selena doing something because she just wants to...

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