Divine.

Chapter 13: What am I Supposed to do With You?

I can't handle this in the slightest of slights... He's so damn cute... I can't help but smile all giddily just looking at him- He shouldn't ever love you back. Well, why the hell not..? He's cute and kind... Someone that you don't deserve. You're so useless and violent, you deserve someone just like your ex. Oh. Well... I guess my thoughts aren't going to be merciful, even on a date as- Are we on a date? Fuck, I can't tell. I can't ask him either... I'll just believe it's a date... What I really want to do right now is take him home, though... "Rio..?" He looks at me with his siren eyes that put me in a trance.
"Yes, Selena?" I'm so in love I could imagine the haze in his eyes...

It is just my imagination, right? Of course it is- I didn't ask you, man... Kill yourself. I'm you. Yeah, and someone as pointless as you should rot in hell. Fuck, leave me alone...
"S-Selena?"
"Oh- Right, uhm... Can you... Sleepover at my house again?"
"Y-Yes please- Yes..." He seems eager...
"You want to?" Just gotta make sure...
"Yeah... I like that you're a cuddler..." Fuck... That's cute of him, now all I wanna do is hug him and kiss him and be with him- You don't deserve to be happy like that, you pathetic pest...

Remember this: When the gods were using the Power of Creation, they needed a rib to make a woman. They had found this one rib, but it was out of the ordinary, misplaced. There was no rack that it belonged to. The gods decided to make this woman anyway, and afterward, they discovered the bone was not what it seemed. It was cartilage. Your point? Shut up. Cartilage is only a weaker copy of bone. This girl that was created was all cartilage. A fake, a weak mistake. When she finally dies, everyone will realize she is boneless. This girl is an anomaly, useless, and deserves nothing but emptiness. She has no soulmate, no fate, not even a destiny. And? She is you, Selena.

Damn... Poetic much? Shut the fuck up... Well, it doesn't matter, I'll try anyway to have a fate with Rio. Plus, that's, like, not anatomically correct. The message has plenty of metaphors. Point is that you're useless. I don't care... For someone who doesn't talk much, my inner thoughts yap a lot...
"Can we go to my house now?"
"Uhm... Yeah, we can..." Rio nods as he says it, then he shifts and shuffles out of the booth. I follow right after him, excited to have a sleepover with him. "Are you, uhm, gonna cuddle me again?" Rio asks as we walk up to my car. "I don't mean that that was bad when you did-"
"If it wasn't bad, does it matter?"

"I just mean that I know you get cold easily, I'd want you to be warm..."
"Hm?"
"I want you to cuddle me..." I gasp a little. What? "So you can be warm..." I guess that makes sense... He's such a selfless worry-wart. If he cuddles me, how would I act? I only realized afterward that I like him... I pin him against the car.
"If you leave me again... I..." He blushes with embarrassment.
"I-I won't, I promise..."
"Okay," I open the door and let him into the car, then I walk to the driver's side and let myself in. "Sorry if I scared you by pinning you, I just felt the need to... I-I don't know..."
"It was okay... Trust me..." Hm...

We get to the house and I open the door for him, for both the car and house. We go up to my room and I sit down on my bed. He stands nervously and I tell him to sit on my lap.
"A-Are you sure?" He's so cute, damnit.
"Yeah, come sit here, I'm sure..."
He doesn't waste any time before straddling me. Him on my lap feels comforting, like a weighted blanket... He wraps his arms around me and puts his face to my neck. Before I can even think, the question is escaping my mouth. "Please?" With my head lolling to the side, and he kissed softly. I pulled him closer.
"W-Why?" He mutters into my skin.
"Because... I'm bored..." I lie and feel him pull back as a result. I pull him closer, stubborn.

"N-No, fuck, that's not why... Just... Do it if you want, I don't want to make you uncomfortable..." I practically beg as I feel him pulling away, but then he relaxes again and he kisses my neck. "Th-Thank you, Rio..." I keep stuttering...
"You're welcome, Selena..." He keeps mumbling... He kisses my neck again and I pause.
"Can we lay down or is that hetero?" That's a stupid question... I can agree with you on that, Idim... I'm right about everything. Alright, that's a lie.
"I wanna lay down... If it's okay with you..." I nod, ignoring Idim's negative droning and laying down, smiling softly as I watch Rio lay down next to me.

Rio's so beautiful... I snuggle up to him and I hook my leg around his.
"Why're you wearing my jacket again, hm? You were on a whole date with Mory, and it reeks of my perfume." Rio snuggles closer to me.
"I-I like your hoodie... I like that it smells like you because you smell good..." Oh... I- That's- Wow, you're pathetic... Even you're melting, Idim? Yeah... Damn, he's cute as fuck. No more "useless mistake" when my reason's right here, hm? Shut the fuck up and kiss Rio. Can't. Can. Shh...
"You like my smell? It's good to you?"
"Mhm... Closer?" He mutters, holding me tighter.
"We can cuddle closer..." I hug him tighter.
"Ready for bed?" Rio nods.
"Hell yeah."

I kiss his neck a little and he hums breathlessly.
"Everytime you cuss, I'm gonna poke you- Or kiss your neck. Just to annoy you." He pulls back for a second to look at me, to confirm that I wasn't just messing around and I was genuine about what I've just offered.
"Okay... That sounds like a deal to me." Rio says quickly. His breathing is heavy and his face almost feels hot on my shoulder. He's blushing because of you. Impossible... That's not possible, Idim. I try to relax and I'm getting sleepy. "Goodnight, Selena..."
"Goodnight, Rio..." He's probably as tired as me... "Hh..." I yawn as I slowly fall asleep.

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