𝗔𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝘄𝗲𝗹𝗹 {𝗗.𝘀𝗵𝗲𝗽𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗱}

𝟯𝟴. 𝗘𝗹𝗹𝗶𝗲'𝘀 𝗯𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸𝗱𝗼𝘄𝗻 {𝗦𝗵𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘆𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗺}

Ellie groaned as she woke her up . Ellie sat up and yawned as she picked up the small baby

She looked to her baby and smiled slightly. She started to feed her and sighed. Ellie didn't know what it was but she felt numb as she fed her baby. She knew that she wanted to be a good mom but she felt as if she couldn't bond with her baby

"I'm so sorry baby. You deserve so much better than me" Ellie said. She knew how everything was getting on top of her and she hated it

She felt as if she was an awful person and she couldn't love her baby

✨✨✨
In a conference room, Ellie crying in front of Andrew.

" And it was so scary, seeing Derek lying on the floor bleeding like that. So scary. It feels good just to, you know, get that out, you know? Thank you. Thank you. I feel like I'm ... Ready to go back to work. It doesn't happen often. Lightning usually gets it right the first time. " Ellie sobbed

"Okay, let's, uh ... Talk more about that tomorrow. "

Andrew starts packing his stuff.

" Come on. " Ellie said

" Do you need a-a tissue or ... A hug or something? "

"Go hug yourself" Ellie said as she angrily leaves.

✨✨✨

Ellie is with Meredith and Cristina

"Owen washed my hair. And he told me to eat this grainy nut bar. And he booked me into surgery this morning. He is in charge of me. I'm a bride  and I'm going with it." Cristina said

"But trauma guy didn't clear you. " meredith asked Chloe as she approached

"Meh" Chloe said as she then turns around at the staring people.

"Yes. Okay, I am the crazy one. I am the one who freaks out and screams at people ... Like that. Go gawk at each other for a while. " Chloe said as More pagers go off.

" Are you okay?" Ellie asked

" Would everybody please just stop asking if I am okay? Okay? " Chloe said

" Still? " Meredith asked Ellie

"I resorted to tears. I wore bad mascara so he wouldn't miss them. "

"What ... what did Derek say? Chloe asked

" Oh, I will be avoiding him today. " Ellie said

" So you don't have to talk to him about the things ?" Chloe asked

" No. " Ellie said

"Oh. Because you left him in the pokey. " Chloe said

"Yeah. " Ellie said

" Did you feel different? You know, after you scribbled on the post-it? I mean, you're supposed to feel different, right?" Cristina said

" Oh, well, it takes take. Give it some time. " ellie said

"Okay. I mean, your marriage is filled with secrets and felons. I mean, why am I asking your advice? " Cristina asked as Ellie rolled her eyes