If I were a human, would you still love me?

Chapter 95. I just wanna..

The trip back home was a long one, not because the road back was long, but because it was one where I couldn't stop crying. Im sure Opera noticed, even if most people sitting outside the carriage wouldn't ever hear me, his ears are golden.

But he wouldn't care anymore, would he? After all, he wants me gone too.. just like grandpa.

I started sobbing again, a bit louder this time, untill I heard a voice call out to me. "Iru-boy?" The voice gently asked. "Ali?" I asked back softly. The voice came up to me, placing his finger against my nose. "Im here now, lil-Iru." He said, trying to comfort me. "So tell me why you're weeping." He then continued. I pointed at Opera. "Oh, its that guy again, hm? I get it, you don't have to speak. It's not as if ive been sleeping, after all.. All that hugging and kissing! I didn't know you could be so bold, Iru-boy~!" Alikured said, posing dramatically in the air. It made me giggle slightly.

"It was much too exiting, watching you trying your hardest to please your lover, its straight out of a novel, ya get me?" He asked, flipping on his back in the air to look at me. I started giggling again, I was extremely depressed and sad, normally this would have made me even more depressed, but it didn't for some reason, I was extremely gigglish. And it only made me feel even more ashamed of myself.

Was I going crazy? Is this what that feels like? Panic surging trough every fiber of your being with the uncomfortable urge to scream and laugh? I don't know.

I sighed, wiping my tears while my head hung low. "Oh, Iru-boy.." Alikred said to himself, seeming concerned. Eventually, the carriage stopped, and Opera hurried to the backseat. Once he saw me I saw no suprise on his face, nor a change in demeanor, because he already had his ears down once he grabbed the carriage's golden handle. "Lets go inside now, master Iruma. I'll take your bag away so don't worry about that." He said, seeming to fully ignore my red nose, the sobs he probably heard and the laughs.

Why? Well, it doesn't matter. Im not wanted here either way. I don't know why I should even think he cared about me in the first place.

I mean, does anyone really? I mean Clara must still be angry, grandpa and Opera want me gone, Kalego absolutely can't stand the sight of me, I only make trouble for Balam and Azz. Same tecnically goes for Ameri, I haven't read her a manga in months. I guess im also just another burden for Opera. To add to that, I even bother Kiriwo because of his 'brother', not that I care about that. I'm just a burden.

I walked to the door without Opera, who was grabbing the bag and sending the familiar demon horses who are dragging the carriage away. Once I took step I was immediately bombarded with a happy grandpa hugging me.

"Oh, my boy is home! My grandson finally returned home!" He said, hugging me firmly. I had the urge to push him away and scream at him, yell at him. I mean, grandpa, or well, Sullivan, you are the reason I have to leave here. You are, no one elses. You decided that.

I sighed quietly to myself while my grandpa continued happily dancing and talking to me. He was so busy he didn't even notice my teary face and red eyes. He was just happily doing his own thing and it almost felt like he was laughing at my pain. Genuinely enjoying it, telling me "Ha! You're going home, how great!" straight to my face.

It hurt.

And so, to show how welcome that feeling was, I put on a big, fake smile and smiled back at him. "Im glad to see you too, grandpa!" However that just made him more oblivious and happy. And it suddenly hit me that he might have just completely forgotten that I was going, or was pretending everything was okay for tommorow night, or should I say anywhere between midnight to six this day?

Grandpa eventually led me to the table, where a mountain of food lay. Opera had then joined us, being done with his job. He won't have to do much more, after all, his biggest obstacle will soon be gone. I hope I don't see him again.