Finding 4

Chapter 37

Marley

This is miserable.

I'm tired of feeling this way.

It's been three weeks. Three whole weeks, and every morning that I wake up, I feel like I don't deserve it. But then, the days are long, and miserable, and I realize why I keep waking up. Because this is my punishment. Living is my punishment.

I didn't answer the call when he needed me, and now I get to live a life of misery.

A hand being placed on my back makes me jump out of my thoughts. Callum sits down next to me at my dining table, and I can see the concern in his eyes.

Nobody is home right now besides Callum and I, because Brody and Tierny had plans, Elijah is at rugby because he decided he wanted to play, and dad has work. Dad refuses to leave me home alone though, so he called Callum.

I look away from my boyfriend, and back at the bowl of cereal in front of me. I've only been able to eat about three bites.

"Why don't you come to the match tonight?" He offers softly. "It's the first one at home since the season started."

I know he wants me there. He's been talking all about hurling since their first game after Christmas break. But me, being the selfish person I am, can't even get out of bed to get to that match.

He needs me there.

I couldn't be there for Mason, but I'll be dammed if I'm not there for my boyfriend.

Mason was an asshole. He did things, and said things, and treated me poorly. Sure, I didn't want him to kill himself, or die at all for that matter, but he was never there for me. Not once.

But Callum? He's always been there for me. Even when we didn't like each other. Mason cheated on me? Callum made sure I got home safely. Marie said some shitty things in the pub? Callum made sure I was okay, even though she was the one who ended up hurt. I was self harming? Callum cleaned up the blood, he wiped the tears, and he let me be all emotional. And he's still here. After all of the bad that he's seen from me, he has stuck by my side.

So the very least I can do for him is show up.

"Okay." I nod.

His eyes light up "Yeah?"

"Yeah." I smile slightly.

Callum smiles too. "I love you."

The smile that spreads across my face is real. A wide one too. I haven't smiled like this in a while. "I love you too."

"Do you want to go to Niall's?" He then asks. "Everyone is over there."

My gaze flicks down to the ground, and my smile fades away. "I don't know."

"Come on," he reaches over and puts his hand on my knee. "It'll be fun."

"Every time that someone tells me something with be fun, it never is." I answer.

He laughs, and I get that same tingly feeling I always get whenever I see him. When he smiles at me, or when he touches me.

I know that exact feeling.

It's how mom described her relationship with dad.

And thats how I know that I'm in love with Callum Lynch.

I finally have the relationship that I have always longed for. Because believe it or not, I am a hopeless romantic.

"I'm serious. Plus it's only our people."